This is a good day, cause: Every day is a good day!

[Leonthel]

Hey guys, I am Leonthel and I am 19 years old, but you can call me Leo.

You will notice that I am not a native speaker, but I don't care about my broken english skills. I hope you nevertheless will understand me.

Well, I am from Germany and the first time I heard about nofap was in January 2014. I tried to do the Reboot of 90 days, but I relapsed after a few days of nofap. Further on I said myself that porns couldn't be my problem. I thought just stress would be the underlying problem and so I've forgotten this point.

Since one month now I am trying to overcome my erectile dysfunction that is to 100 of percents caused by my porn and masturbation abuse. Always when I felt bad, I started masturbating on porns with many different windows of different porns. One orgasm by another I have gotten I have noticed, that I have a problem.

I am convinced that my ED is caused by my habits of masturbation, orgasms and porn. I'm feeling very bad and right now I am feeling very depressed.

My longest time I have achieved was 11 days. This time I have reached two times, but I would like to reach successfully the 90 days in hard mode. The 11 days were without orgasms and porn, but with masturbation and I'm not very proud about this.

My story is a little bit complicated, but at the moment I am living alone in my flat since 2 years and doing this year my abitur (last year of highschool). Later on I am planing to spend a year in america with a stipendium, work and travel or even au pair. America possesses a special attractiveness for me, because it's a total different mentality, culture and country than Germany. I also would like to improve my English skills, because I can understand English very good, but I've difficulties in talking it.

So, I am very enthusiastic about the USA.

I think this is enough. I am a very common guy with a porn induced erectile dysfunction and the most important for me is to overcome it.

I will write later on in my log more about me, my attitude for life and my progress in nofap and Reboot.

The Rules: No masturbation, no orgasms, no porn and no triggers!

Let the games begin!

 

[Leonthel]

This is Day number 1 and at the moment I'm feeling quite okay. I try not to think all the time at my ED, but it helps to be busy. I hope, that I can start this Reboot successfull. But I am optimistic. Tomorrow I am going to tell my therapist about my problem with porns, because it's important for me to talk honest with her about my issues in my life. This is a milestone for me, cause just last week I understood how I am influenced by my addiction and PIED. I notice that my skin gets immediately akne. So I Have also physical symptoms. Wish you all a good start for this week.

 

[Leonthel]

Today is day number two and I am feeling very tired. I had insomnia last night so my day at school was horrible. That's the cause why I go into my bed for doing a powernap. Moreover I have headaches and weekness so I think this are the side effects of the Reboot. But I am feeling good in doing a reboot.

 

[Leonthel]

Wow I am just coming from my therapist and I feel so good, because I told her my problem about pornos. Now I will go into the supermarket and later on I will go to the gym. Have a great day guys!

 

[Leonthel]

Good morning everybody. Today is a great day, cause everyday is a great day!

I slept very well and I am feeling very good. I notice, that there is a urge to fap, but as long as I know, that I am strong I am able to Come to terms with it. My therapist suggested, that always When I have the feeling that I will have a relapse, I have to do something what gives me satisfaction like doing sports or playing piano. My aim is it to being in such situations as busy as possible. But my most important Rule is not to touch or stimulate my penis in the faintest kind of way. Wish you a great morning, in Germany it's just 06:50 am. Have a nice day and be strong! 

 

[Leonthel]

Now back at home and I am very tired and exhausted from class. I notice that I just have a big urge to masturbate also if my libido is low. But if I touched myself now, I would relapse. So I try to meditate a little bit, eat something and doing an afternoon nap. Later on I go to sport. It's important for me to be busy, but I am feeling good in nofapping.

 

[Leonthel]

Today I relapsed. I am feeling a little bit frustrated, but I will continue.

 

[Leonthel]

Hey guys today is day number three and I have a big urge to masturbate. It's very hard for me not to masturbate, but I have had Saturday and Friday some great experiences with my brother and my mate. I have difficulties to do things with friends, but at the moment I am feeling very happy. Have a nice weekend!

 

[Leonthel]

Today I am feeling okay, but I have to fight with the side affects. I bought the ebook "Your Brain on Porn" by Gary Wilson and it's very interesting.

The therapy is hard, because I have a desire for love and closeness with a woman and I talked much about it. I come to terms with my self-pity. I will be strong.

 

[Leonthel]

Hey guys.

I am very fine and now I reached day 19. I have reached the first stage and I successfull passed the first two weeks. I vvery glad about this, because the first 10 days were the hardest ones. I will continue nofapping, but actually I am feeeling soo good, that I can't imagine at the moment to quit my challenge.

Have a nice day.