BortMcAllister
New Member
I have been rebooting for several months now, and have been pretty good about not relapsing. I do not feel as though I am addicted to porn, or ever have been, in the sense that I don't crave porn and have gone cold turkey on it quite well. About a month or two ago, I started getting strong urges to masterbate, and did so a few times, but slowly and with an off hand in order to make it more like doing the real thing (I know). But other than that I've been good.
Now I did start watching porn at a young age, as young as 10, and I am now 26. Well before I had sex for the first time. So I think that's a big factor here. Any rate, I've had problems with previous girlfriends and this issue. My current girlfriend, I informed her early on, and bless her, she's been very patient and understanding. I felt like perhaps my problem was improving as I could become erect regularly and ejaculate if she gave me oral. Which was encouraging as no other woman was able to before her.
However, we started having sex recently, and yes technically I entered her, but i can't perform in any way worth writing home about. In fact since we started trying to have sex I feel like my problem has gotten much worse, she couldn't even get me off with oral. I've had fluctuating moods recently, where I felt apathy towards the relationship one day, then the next couldn't stop saying "I love her so much" to myself in my head all day at work. Don't get me wrong, I love her dearly, but the mood swings were odd to me. I have to wonder, am I in flatline? Is this a silver lining? We attempt sex 2-3 times a week currently. Should I cut back to increase sensitivity?
I can't get it hard enough to use a condom and I feel bad, I feel like I'm letting her down because I'm not doing her the honor of wearing one and protecting us from pregnancy in any way other than pulling out. Given enough time I can ejaculate even if limp, but nothing feels as sensitive as it should.
I have read and read the website, but I just need help figuring out where I'm at, if I'm doing it right or if I should up my game and go see a sexual therapist. I feel like I need a game plan to keep on track because I don't want to disappoint her more. I just took her virginity this week with a limp dick. I'm not freaking out about it and allowing myself to be anxious but I didn't want it to happen this way.
Please help!
Now I did start watching porn at a young age, as young as 10, and I am now 26. Well before I had sex for the first time. So I think that's a big factor here. Any rate, I've had problems with previous girlfriends and this issue. My current girlfriend, I informed her early on, and bless her, she's been very patient and understanding. I felt like perhaps my problem was improving as I could become erect regularly and ejaculate if she gave me oral. Which was encouraging as no other woman was able to before her.
However, we started having sex recently, and yes technically I entered her, but i can't perform in any way worth writing home about. In fact since we started trying to have sex I feel like my problem has gotten much worse, she couldn't even get me off with oral. I've had fluctuating moods recently, where I felt apathy towards the relationship one day, then the next couldn't stop saying "I love her so much" to myself in my head all day at work. Don't get me wrong, I love her dearly, but the mood swings were odd to me. I have to wonder, am I in flatline? Is this a silver lining? We attempt sex 2-3 times a week currently. Should I cut back to increase sensitivity?
I can't get it hard enough to use a condom and I feel bad, I feel like I'm letting her down because I'm not doing her the honor of wearing one and protecting us from pregnancy in any way other than pulling out. Given enough time I can ejaculate even if limp, but nothing feels as sensitive as it should.
I have read and read the website, but I just need help figuring out where I'm at, if I'm doing it right or if I should up my game and go see a sexual therapist. I feel like I need a game plan to keep on track because I don't want to disappoint her more. I just took her virginity this week with a limp dick. I'm not freaking out about it and allowing myself to be anxious but I didn't want it to happen this way.
Please help!