Today is my first day of my new journey to recovery with Reboot Nation, l am really trying hard to control my own mind but still l have these flashes of porn videos, porn pictures and this temptation to go open pornhub drop my pants and give myself seconds of amazing joy, l hope this is the final attempt of me trying to be old self age cause l cant leave with this hunger or demon of lust and lust only, l cant continue seeing nudity every time l close my eyes. l want to think normal again, see other women just as a normal person sees them not as a lustful slave, now l am trying as hard as l can to be always busy with school, hygiene, fitness and anything else that takes my mind of this rush of porn and masturbation, l have taken this moments of rush as a time l need to abstain for only a few minute's and eventually the feeling will go away, l am trying to train my mind that its just a feeling that is brought by my mind and can be defeated by just running away from what ever brought the thought to my mind. And obviously l haven't opened porn nor masturbate just these wild thoughts jumping up and down in my mind.
Day 1 of full recovery
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