Today is my second day attempt of full abstinence l am trying really to change all my bad habits, these past days l have been trying to expand my faith and hope to God l feel as times l am not yet able to tell myself l am God child, l feel as if l have sinned and disappointed him countless times. l really pain me to feel or think l may be drifting away from God. l read the bible everyday before sleep and also have a book of hope in God, but l know nothing is to big for God if you let him help you. So l know that with patience and hope l will come these bad ways of mine. l am also wanting to start exercising in the morning to try and drain my energy as much as l can, when l have the rush to watch porn or masturbate that when l run quick to this platform and just vent out my feelings and thoughts and also to just pass by time till the feeling is gone, as l am typing it feels sort of like a hobby now to entertain my mind and just divert it from porn & masturbation to something else. But l am still fighting with these thoughts and feelings, l also flood to music sometimes when l feel free from stuff. l also try as much to do more school work than on a regular day, but l feel also being alone can bring my thoughts back so l try as much to be with my family and just enjoy chatting and breathing some free air rather than being in my room all day long. But all is well for now.
Day 2
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