Lets Do This!
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Default: To return to who I am if I take away all learned behaviors and inefficient coping mechanisms.
I really want to put my life in the fast lane. Stop watching porn and just get on with my life and do the things that I want to do. Porn is like this viscid substance that just slows me down and prevents me from accomplishing the things that I want to accomplish in life. So, my journal entries will be quick (not necessarily short, but I will write whatever I write).
Basically, PMO has been a problem for me since I got my first computer at the age of 17. I am now 26. I tend to have binge sessions. I never seem to watch porn on a daily basis because I'm busy enough for that not to even be a question. But when I do have free time, my addictive brain wants to make the sessions count. And thus, the binging happens.
Recently, things haven't been so bad for me because I'm learning a lot about myself, not only in regards with who my default self is sexually, but also in general. I find myself much happier in life and less pessimistic about the future, even when I relapse and do bad things. I used to get completely saturated with guilt whenever I PMOed. But lately, I just realize that it's life. We don't always do things that we like. We have regrets. But we move on.
So, this is my journey to stop being burdened by the past, to stop worrying about the future, and to focus on my present self.
Cheers!
I really want to put my life in the fast lane. Stop watching porn and just get on with my life and do the things that I want to do. Porn is like this viscid substance that just slows me down and prevents me from accomplishing the things that I want to accomplish in life. So, my journal entries will be quick (not necessarily short, but I will write whatever I write).
Basically, PMO has been a problem for me since I got my first computer at the age of 17. I am now 26. I tend to have binge sessions. I never seem to watch porn on a daily basis because I'm busy enough for that not to even be a question. But when I do have free time, my addictive brain wants to make the sessions count. And thus, the binging happens.
Recently, things haven't been so bad for me because I'm learning a lot about myself, not only in regards with who my default self is sexually, but also in general. I find myself much happier in life and less pessimistic about the future, even when I relapse and do bad things. I used to get completely saturated with guilt whenever I PMOed. But lately, I just realize that it's life. We don't always do things that we like. We have regrets. But we move on.
So, this is my journey to stop being burdened by the past, to stop worrying about the future, and to focus on my present self.
Cheers!
