henrychinaski
Member
My name is Matt. Not Henry. I don't know why I feel that's important. It's not I guess.
I am stuck in an endless cycle of relapses and I'm beginning to wonder what the fucking point of trying is. I had a nice long pornfree period of 87 days before I relapsed briefly. I then began another of around 23 days or so. During that period of time I got back together with my girlfriend and things have been going great. Met the parents. Feel connected to her. Sex is...so-so. I had definitely noticed a difference in ED-related issues during the early stages of our relationship.
I really don't know why I'm struggling so much. The thought enters the brain and boom, I'm gone. Immediately after: Shame. I know that's how it's going to go and yet I still do it.
I can't remember how I got started the first time. So I'm going to pretend that long-ass streak doesn't exist.
I'm brand-new at this.
Where do I start? What am I doing wrong?
I'm scared I am going to lose my girl.
I am stuck in an endless cycle of relapses and I'm beginning to wonder what the fucking point of trying is. I had a nice long pornfree period of 87 days before I relapsed briefly. I then began another of around 23 days or so. During that period of time I got back together with my girlfriend and things have been going great. Met the parents. Feel connected to her. Sex is...so-so. I had definitely noticed a difference in ED-related issues during the early stages of our relationship.
I really don't know why I'm struggling so much. The thought enters the brain and boom, I'm gone. Immediately after: Shame. I know that's how it's going to go and yet I still do it.
I can't remember how I got started the first time. So I'm going to pretend that long-ass streak doesn't exist.
I'm brand-new at this.
Where do I start? What am I doing wrong?
I'm scared I am going to lose my girl.