Hi everybody,
I decided to reboot because my sexual life has been really bad in the past years, I have a lot of problems of ED and of lack of sexual desire.
Here it is my background.
When I started masturbating (around 11 or 12 yo) I wasn't using porn. It was not so easy to find it, internet was slow and the free sites didn't exist. I remember that when I was around 14 or 15 I was staying up until late night to watch erotic shows like "Playboy late night" and getting incredibly aroused just watching some boobs or a pussy. When I was around 16, a friend of mine gave me a CD with some porn videos. It was so arousing to me, I was watching the videos over and over againg and always getting very aroused.
Then I had a relationship with a girl, from 16 to 18, and sex with her was really great. No issues at all.
But, when we broke up, things started changing a lot. I have been almost 3 years single, without having sex. In the meanwhile, online porn spread enormously, and I started using it regularly. While in the past I could get aroused even watching the same video 20 times, I started looking for new videos every time. I also noticed an excalation: I wasn't finding plain sex so arousing anymore, I started looking for harder and "weirder" sex.
After that period, from my 21s till now, I had three girflriends and several one night stands. Almost all the one night stands I didn't manage to have an erection, or I lost it immediately. With the girlfriends, I always had issues the first times, getting a bit better later. But still, failing some times, and, expecially, not being so aroused. I've even noticed that sometimes I was having sex while thinking to some porn videos I watched the day before. And it was absolutely impossible to have two consecutive intercourses.
I also dropped a lot of opportunities of sleeping with a girl because I was sure I would have failed. For example, I was making out with a girl at a party, could invite her in my place, but didn't do it because I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything.
I've talked to a doctor. He told me that I just have a sexual performance anxiety and he gave me viagra. But this is just a temporary workaround, that's not what I'm looking for. I don't want just to get an hard erection, I want do discover the pleasure of sex again.
That's why I decided to reboot. Today, it's exactely 22 days without PMO. How do I feel?
Well, sometimes I get morning woods - but not every day. Sometimes they were really hard, tho. For the rest, anyway, I didn't notice big changments for what concerns my erection.
The best thing is that I've noticed a different attitute toward girls. I feel more likely to talk to them, more open, more nice. And I feel that girls are more attractive. That makes me think that I'm going in the right direction and motivates me to keep on doing that.
I decided to reboot because my sexual life has been really bad in the past years, I have a lot of problems of ED and of lack of sexual desire.
Here it is my background.
When I started masturbating (around 11 or 12 yo) I wasn't using porn. It was not so easy to find it, internet was slow and the free sites didn't exist. I remember that when I was around 14 or 15 I was staying up until late night to watch erotic shows like "Playboy late night" and getting incredibly aroused just watching some boobs or a pussy. When I was around 16, a friend of mine gave me a CD with some porn videos. It was so arousing to me, I was watching the videos over and over againg and always getting very aroused.
Then I had a relationship with a girl, from 16 to 18, and sex with her was really great. No issues at all.
But, when we broke up, things started changing a lot. I have been almost 3 years single, without having sex. In the meanwhile, online porn spread enormously, and I started using it regularly. While in the past I could get aroused even watching the same video 20 times, I started looking for new videos every time. I also noticed an excalation: I wasn't finding plain sex so arousing anymore, I started looking for harder and "weirder" sex.
After that period, from my 21s till now, I had three girflriends and several one night stands. Almost all the one night stands I didn't manage to have an erection, or I lost it immediately. With the girlfriends, I always had issues the first times, getting a bit better later. But still, failing some times, and, expecially, not being so aroused. I've even noticed that sometimes I was having sex while thinking to some porn videos I watched the day before. And it was absolutely impossible to have two consecutive intercourses.
I also dropped a lot of opportunities of sleeping with a girl because I was sure I would have failed. For example, I was making out with a girl at a party, could invite her in my place, but didn't do it because I knew I wouldn't be able to do anything.
I've talked to a doctor. He told me that I just have a sexual performance anxiety and he gave me viagra. But this is just a temporary workaround, that's not what I'm looking for. I don't want just to get an hard erection, I want do discover the pleasure of sex again.
That's why I decided to reboot. Today, it's exactely 22 days without PMO. How do I feel?
Well, sometimes I get morning woods - but not every day. Sometimes they were really hard, tho. For the rest, anyway, I didn't notice big changments for what concerns my erection.
The best thing is that I've noticed a different attitute toward girls. I feel more likely to talk to them, more open, more nice. And I feel that girls are more attractive. That makes me think that I'm going in the right direction and motivates me to keep on doing that.