lordjazz432
New Member
Hey everybody, glad to know that a support group like this exists. I've had many addictions in my life and currently the one most pressing for me seems like the struggle I've had with pornography. I'm only 26 so I'd like to get control back over life before I get much older.
I used porn since a young age like most people, but I also was put into many institutions since then in which I couldn't use porn, but still continued to masterbate consistently, which leads me to recognize a problem with both.
About 4 years ago I had a difficult relationship with someone that made me extremely turned off to attempting to have another one for awhile. I've wanted to have sex, but haven't for nearly that entire period of 4 years because of an aversion to finding myself in another unhealthy relationship.
Unfortunately, that led me to using porn and masterbating much more in those years than I would have liked.
For about the last year, I have resisted using porn or masterbating for some stretches, maybe a few days or a week or so at a time, but eventually I come back around to it for stress relief.
Most often the stress comes from loneliness or work. I climb cell phone towers which is quite strenuous and also travel a lot leaving me isolated in hotel rooms most of the time.
I keep myself busy most of the time, but my triggers often creep up on me. Obviously seeing different pictures of women on the internet might set me off, or seeing a beautiful woman in public, and definitely my feelings of loneliness.
I know I'm not alone. I'm just glad that a support group exists.
My main fears are that my stamina isn't adequate for normal sex. I watched a few of the videos on youtube and the one that spoke about exhausting our neural pathways over stimulating them with multiple pictures of women caught my attention. When I did have sex, twice in the last 3 or 4 years, it seems to me like I didn't last long in relation to that reason. It just worries me. I don't know if it that process starts to reverse after awhile without porn and masturbating or not. If anybody has any idea Id be much obliged to have your comments.
I have some other problems, but I'd like to save them for later.
Thanks
I used porn since a young age like most people, but I also was put into many institutions since then in which I couldn't use porn, but still continued to masterbate consistently, which leads me to recognize a problem with both.
About 4 years ago I had a difficult relationship with someone that made me extremely turned off to attempting to have another one for awhile. I've wanted to have sex, but haven't for nearly that entire period of 4 years because of an aversion to finding myself in another unhealthy relationship.
Unfortunately, that led me to using porn and masterbating much more in those years than I would have liked.
For about the last year, I have resisted using porn or masterbating for some stretches, maybe a few days or a week or so at a time, but eventually I come back around to it for stress relief.
Most often the stress comes from loneliness or work. I climb cell phone towers which is quite strenuous and also travel a lot leaving me isolated in hotel rooms most of the time.
I keep myself busy most of the time, but my triggers often creep up on me. Obviously seeing different pictures of women on the internet might set me off, or seeing a beautiful woman in public, and definitely my feelings of loneliness.
I know I'm not alone. I'm just glad that a support group exists.
My main fears are that my stamina isn't adequate for normal sex. I watched a few of the videos on youtube and the one that spoke about exhausting our neural pathways over stimulating them with multiple pictures of women caught my attention. When I did have sex, twice in the last 3 or 4 years, it seems to me like I didn't last long in relation to that reason. It just worries me. I don't know if it that process starts to reverse after awhile without porn and masturbating or not. If anybody has any idea Id be much obliged to have your comments.
I have some other problems, but I'd like to save them for later.
Thanks