lionspats123
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Hey Guys
I'm 23 years old, recently graduated from university. I can't say how long I have been PMOing for. I can remember as far as age 7 or 8 I have been masturbating for, and can remember around early puberty getting into the extremes of porn addiction when highspeed internet became common place. It began from once or twice a month and just shot up from there. In high school it began as once or twice a week, to eventually 5 to 6 times a week if not more in university. This PMOing since i was 7 i have realized has really wired my brain up in the wrong way.
After I graduated school, and began working, a terrible routine of coming home from work and hitting my bed and laptop for porn. I didn't see it as too much of a problem initially. I always sort of saw it as "everyone" has an addiction of some sort. Atleast i wasn;t on any drugs of any sort." With so much porn available for free, I was fortunate in a way to have never blown any money on it.
The reason I have decided to stop and be clear of it was one instance of sex where despite my best efforts I could not get turned on at all. FOr the life of me I could not get it up. When ever there was porn in front of me I could get hard, then it hit me that I could not at all get it up when it for a real girl.
The other reason I want to stop is because I have looked into the research where MRI scans have been done on brains of porn addicts and the results showed that the brain responding in similar manner to drug addicts. I realize that the psychological impact of having an unlimited supply of porn could be devastating.
When I look back, I believe that porn is not only causing my ED, but it is also causing me to be complacent, lazy, and over in an undesirable mental state. Having been addicted to porn for so long, I know that it is going to be a mountainous challenge to reboot. As I write this, I;m not even sure I know how hard rebooting really is going to be.
My goals for rebooting are of course to rewire my brain to get aroused properly and have a proper erection, and also to overall improve myself mentally (more focus, confidence, and energy) without having porn in my life.
Day 1 starts now
I'm 23 years old, recently graduated from university. I can't say how long I have been PMOing for. I can remember as far as age 7 or 8 I have been masturbating for, and can remember around early puberty getting into the extremes of porn addiction when highspeed internet became common place. It began from once or twice a month and just shot up from there. In high school it began as once or twice a week, to eventually 5 to 6 times a week if not more in university. This PMOing since i was 7 i have realized has really wired my brain up in the wrong way.
After I graduated school, and began working, a terrible routine of coming home from work and hitting my bed and laptop for porn. I didn't see it as too much of a problem initially. I always sort of saw it as "everyone" has an addiction of some sort. Atleast i wasn;t on any drugs of any sort." With so much porn available for free, I was fortunate in a way to have never blown any money on it.
The reason I have decided to stop and be clear of it was one instance of sex where despite my best efforts I could not get turned on at all. FOr the life of me I could not get it up. When ever there was porn in front of me I could get hard, then it hit me that I could not at all get it up when it for a real girl.
The other reason I want to stop is because I have looked into the research where MRI scans have been done on brains of porn addicts and the results showed that the brain responding in similar manner to drug addicts. I realize that the psychological impact of having an unlimited supply of porn could be devastating.
When I look back, I believe that porn is not only causing my ED, but it is also causing me to be complacent, lazy, and over in an undesirable mental state. Having been addicted to porn for so long, I know that it is going to be a mountainous challenge to reboot. As I write this, I;m not even sure I know how hard rebooting really is going to be.
My goals for rebooting are of course to rewire my brain to get aroused properly and have a proper erection, and also to overall improve myself mentally (more focus, confidence, and energy) without having porn in my life.
Day 1 starts now
