odd case?

[naughtynumpty]

Ok  am 26 years old and started fantasising and masturbating since 13 (half my life yes) and since 17-24 this involved alot of porn which I have eliminated but do watch it when am "bored".

Sometimes I have done it 10+ times a day and over last 2 years its come down is this due to my libibo?

Right this year I tried to reboot a few times but failed after 2 weeks. However I last masturbated 21 days ago and last Monday I went on a date and had on and off erections but I was leaking is this normal and will this effect reboot bearing in mind this was without touching? 

Since this Sunday I have not felt anything and last night I had a hook up with a gorgeous girl and I knew I won't get hard and took 20mg cialis however I still didn't get hard and we didn't do it. Was this because of the "flat line or lifeless penis" phase from Sunday?  So I came last night and out of anger and frustration I masturbated...

Do I need to start all over again for the reboot or shall I be happy that it will be a month next week and I will have only masturbated once and take this as a good thing for self esteem?


Also when am rebooting I have a bad habit of stroking and seeing how much has built up I do this more on a habit basis without porn and this causes pre cum to leak will this make the reboot longer?

Many thanks

 

[Salvo26]

I am feeling ya bro!

I am new to this forum so i have no idea what ''flatline'' means. It it some phase in the reboot process?

I don't think Cialis or any pill will solve the problem (even temporarily) We really need to purify our minds from porn.

I read something about boredom in your post. I suffer from the exact same state, while i have a job and even workout i am still extremely bored all the time (which doesn't help either) I think we must find something that excites us more than usual. Like a great new hobby.

I've failed probably over 20 times with quiting porn, but hey i've started just now and i hope i am gonna make it this time.

I hope the same for you too keep your head up bro!

 

[naughtynumpty]

Lol I like your little counter in your sig! ;D

I thought I might as well keep this as a diary.

I did it last on Thursday 23 Oct and again at Tuesday 11 Nov.

Since 23 Oct I have done it twice in 24 day period. (Tues was just a loser moment).

This coming Thursday 20 Nov it will be 28 days and I can say I hopefully have done it once in 4 weeks rather than twice.

And then Thursday 18 Dec I could say done it once in 56 days and not done it at all for 28 days - kind of having 2 cycles here...

I know some of you say you can't do it at all but it is good to start somewhere and slow.  Just like smokers quitting they won't stop smoking all together right? Or you go to the gym you won't lift super heavy at first you will build it.

I have also decided to start gyming and build my scrawny self - enough of the loser days no point sitting moping about it done enough of that. I am 27 next year if am not going to enjoy life now when am I?!

Also by not doing it will it help with weight gain?  I heard this somewhere.

 

[naughtynumpty]

Also my libido seems to have come back today.

I don't know if that is the effect of cialis from other day but am sure that has gone out of my system.

Guess these "lifeless" phases are when the semen isn't used and the body thinks the testies have hibernated and therefore limits the blood supply? 

And every now again it turns the power supply on (blood supply) and within the lifeless period more semen has built up hence the increased in urge?

My little theory. 

 

[naughtynumpty]

Great I pmo again tonight.  What a loser

Officially today would been 4 weeks since I done ut once now uts twice great. Last week and this week

Thick yellowy juice came out thanks to some secretary porn.

 

[duphil143]

Listen man, I was there. Semen leakage happened to me a lot as well. I stopped being able to get it up with this girl I was seeing and turned to viagra. The viagra worked most of the time, but the stress and shame caused me to pmo, most of the time flacid. I ended things with her and decided to take up no PMO.

I'm at day 38 and have zero semen leakage now, even when i get an erection. I have night time erections numerous times at night as well. You need to relax. You're stressed like I was and are putting too much pressure on yourself. Stop all sexual activity for a period of time. No sex, no fapping, no nothing. You need to give your body and mind time to recover. That stress and anxiety ED causes is powerful my friend. Take time off and its amazing how it all goes away eventually. Took a month for me, but my stress levels are really low.

Don't worry about messing up, but go into this telling yourself you won't. I promise it gets better. Just be dedicated and let yourself heal. Separate yourself from the problem and I guarantee things get better.

 

[naughtynumpty]

Hi guys thought I will update this.  Been a bit wild lol:

POMd on 20 November
Sex with viagra on 23 November and on 1, 3, 7 December
POMd 23 Dec

In the process I would stroke but today it got bad whilst stroking and thought I was going to urinate but POMd instead.  Great!

The sex I had with four different women I didn't feel... weird I know - guess I hadn't rewired but I thought having sex would help me from POMing

My problem us stroking ffs

In the last four weeks I done three rounds of sex and one POM am going on weekly cycles and hoping to increase a bit different from the 90 day recharges the sex hopefully will "teach" me the right way of pleasure. ..so I don't pom