Age - 27 , PIED from 6 years , Porn addiction spoiled my life

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lifelessbone

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Please someone help me .... Sorry for bad English but i hope you'll understand it.

I started watching p*rn at the age of 14-15. PMO started at age 18. Currently it's been almost a decade and more since I started PMO and recently I got a gf and we tried to have sex but it didn't happen due to PIED. We had breakup because of this .

It all happened due to lack of sex education. I am feeling guilt for what I have done. I just want to know if I can become a normal person ever like I used to be in teenage ?

As far as I remember - i have no libido from past 6 years and no morning wood. Not even my fav p*rn videos are giving me erections now. I feel my pen*s is dead. I have no confidence in life , brain fog , anxiety, memory issue ( not able to remember the movies that I watched recently) , depression and above all its killing me inside with suicide thoughts.

I am getting matches and may be getting married within couple of years .. is it possible to get better before that specific time with hard mode (NO PMO) ? Will i get my libido back ??? I am ready to sacrifice anything for it.

Please reply me .... My porn addiction spoiled my life 😢

Thank you very much In advance!
 
Scorpio1990

Scorpio1990

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lifelessbone said:
Please someone help me .... Sorry for bad English but i hope you'll understand it.

I started watching p*rn at the age of 14-15. PMO started at age 18. Currently it's been almost a decade and more since I started PMO and recently I got a gf and we tried to have sex but it didn't happen due to PIED. We had breakup because of this .

It all happened due to lack of sex education. I am feeling guilt for what I have done. I just want to know if I can become a normal person ever like I used to be in teenage ?

As far as I remember - i have no libido from past 6 years and no morning wood. Not even my fav p*rn videos are giving me erections now. I feel my pen*s is dead. I have no confidence in life , brain fog , anxiety, memory issue ( not able to remember the movies that I watched recently) , depression and above all its killing me inside with suicide thoughts.

I am getting matches and may be getting married within couple of years .. is it possible to get better before that specific time with hard mode (NO PMO) ? Will i get my libido back ??? I am ready to sacrifice anything for it.

Please reply me .... My porn addiction spoiled my life 😢

Thank you very much In advance!
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Honestly man, we can recover but we all just don’t know when. How have you managed to go so long. Have you been pmo free? Once you stop you should start feeling better but we’re all different. I gotten worse and I have been suicidal too because of the withdrawal changes in my brain. Don’t feel alone. Im suffering too.
 
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lifelessbone

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Thanks mate for the support !

It's day-30 of my NO PMO Journey.After reading so many success stories I felt I am not alone and someday I'll also write my success story .

After quitting PMO for 30 days , I got some positive vibes in life. I am able to manage the anxiety , set some goals for life and having little hope that I can recover.

But still my brain is making me remember the porn videos that I have watched over the years and urge to PMO again...Somehow I am able to change my mind and focus on other works during that urge time. The thing is I can resist myself from watching the porn but I still remember my fav porn videos,not able to forget them .

Apart from that , i still overthink about my ED problem and zero libido due that I am feeling depressed and low.


Scorpio1990 said:
Honestly man, we can recover but we all just don’t know when. How have you managed to go so long. Have you been pmo free? Once you stop you should start feeling better but we’re all different. I gotten worse and I have been suicidal too because of the withdrawal changes in my brain. Don’t feel alone. Im suffering too.
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lifelessbone

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Day 42 :
The current situation is like I am not at all interested in watching porn, almost forgot the porn videos that i watched for more than 10 years. I am Eating healthy food , completely quit smoking when i started no PMO mode but consuming alcohol once in every 10 days.There is no urge at all to masterbate , no morning wood , brain fog , mood swings.

But after quitting PMO , I am able to focus on other goals of life . Anxiety reduced, my voice tone has improved, able to speak with anyone without shy.

I appreciate if you can help me with some tips that are related to physical exercises. I simply stay in home, reading books and I completely don't do any exercise not even walking. Also can I take alcohol or should I quit it completely like cigarette?


Don't really know how many months it is going to take for recovering from PIED. This battle continues..........
 
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Simon2

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I always think just some walks in nature is a great way to start exercising :). Challenge yourself to check out some different places around your home? Maybe try to go for a bit longer every day, or the days of the week you can.

Alcohol? I think it depends whether you are in danger of abusing it, or can you comfortably just have a drink here and there? Just a glass once in a while shouldn't have a negative impact on you unless it makes you FEEL bad.
 
Brandenburg

Brandenburg

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Smoking, nicotine is causing the same dopamine surge that you want to stop by quitting P . It's counteracting your gains . And smoking can cause ED ( by affecting the small arteries and veins in the penis) . So you should quit smoking 100 percent non negotiable...


For alcohol you try to minimize but if you can quit better
 
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lifelessbone

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Today ( Day -50) , i somehow got triggered and masturbated without watching porn. Feeling guilt after doing it becoz I need to start from the beginning 🥺

Got morning wood from past 3 days continuously... Don't know whether I get it tomorrow or not !
 
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lifelessbone

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Day - 54 : The urge to watch porn is completely dead. Used to have anxiety, depression and nothing gives me satisfaction/motivation/ excitement.

From past 3-4 days my brain started reacting to small things in life and i am enjoying comedy shows , small things also exciting me , able to focus on minor things in life. Fuck anxiety, depression , introvert qualities. I don't have any shy or fear to talk with anyone. I was never this much active or i don't have this much energy levels from past 7-8 years .... I can feel myself getting closer to the teenage days where I used to be active, fearless and many more qualities/personality 😌

But I still have memory issues. I have short term memory. One day I will overcome this as well 🤟
 
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lifelessbone

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Day - 54 : The urge to watch porn is completely dead. Used to have anxiety, depression and nothing gives me satisfaction/motivation/ excitement.

From past 3-4 days my brain started reacting to small things in life and i am enjoying comedy shows , small things also exciting me , able to focus on minor things in life. Fuck anxiety, depression , introvert qualities. I don't have any shy or fear to talk with anyone. I was never this much active or i don't have this much energy levels from past 7-8 years .... I can feel myself getting closer to the teenage days where I used to be active, fearless and many more qualities/personality 😌
Androg said:
Many guys report memory improvements for months as they recover. Stay optimistic.
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Seriously man.... Thank you very much for the information & Support ❤️ It motivates me and keeps me stay positive! I will continue my fight against PIED 🤗
 
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lifelessbone

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Day 85 :

Benefits of quitting porn : I am more energetic, my tone has changed , i can speak with anyone without shy, completely forgot what is anxiety and depression. Getting morning wood once or twice in a week. Feeling positive all the time and having passion to achieve the goals. Memory is improving. Brain fog reduced a bit.

I know, i watched porn for more than a decade and masterbated everyday (once/twice/thrice) with different categories (women dominating men and shemale kind of videos). This numbed my feelings towards real women. This may take more time to heal my decensitized neurotransmitters in brain.

Hoping for the best 🙂 Never going back to watch the porn again.

Let me know , is it okay to watch women in bikini and cleavage while rebooting? Whenever I open YouTube or try to watch TV i am getting this kind of stuff . Will it slow down my rebooting process ?
 
Androg

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There's no set rule about what you can and can't watch...and things may shift as your recovery progresses. For now, you need to ask yourself what effect such images have on your wellbeing. If they trigger a relapse, then they are obviously best avoided...for now, at least. a friend of mine used to say that "If you have to ask, then the image in question is probably a problem." ;)
 
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