We are in the end game now! (My diary)

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Reboot_Brazil

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I will try to make this history simple. First of all, I'm sorry for my English, I'm from Brazil, so forgive if I'll make some mistakes.
I've started watching porn about 11 years old, and when I was 15 I've deepen up on that. When I was 18 I realized that I have a real problem with that and since them I try to get out of it. I've been 125 days in a row without using any porn. That's my record.
But, on the last month, I've had felt and done that over, over, over, and so on.
So now, I'm going back to struggle with that, I returned to fell insecure with the girls cause I'm afraid of getting ED again. My real problem is that I've watched a lot of lesbian fantasy, so sometimes the real sex seems to be boring to me. But I have had got out of it once, and I know the reboot can help me with that again! So I think this is it, I will try to update my diary daily so you guys can see how good I'm turning into!
 
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Ask your partner to go slow, while you orient to sex IRL. If you make it clear that SHE is not the problem (that is, that you find her very attractive!), and that you take responsibility for your sluggish response...and ask her to be patient and not push you to perform, she might well willingly support you.
 
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Androg said:
Ask your partner to go slow, while you orient to sex IRL. If you make it clear that SHE is not the problem (that is, that you find her very attractive!), and that you take responsibility for your sluggish response...and ask her to be patient and not push you to perform, she might well willingly support you.
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At the moment I don't have a partner, I was making sex with a girl, but with the relapse I stopped to talk to her and that's all. But It was nothing serious y'know, just sex, I am good with that. But the problem is when I go to places like the university parties and then I start getting nervous of some girls come over me to kiss and then try to sleep with me. That's the worst part, being afraid of have a failed erection.
 
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I did not write this weekend cause I was in my parent´s house. It was good to share some timewith them because it helps you stay away from porn thougths. My weekend went pretty well and I just have had some impulse to porn sometimes. Now I´m back home and nedd to be carefull at the times that I´m alone and having nothing to do.
 
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First relapse report!
After 5 days without any porn I relapsed. Why? It probly happened because my problem with sleep. It was about 5 am and I couldn´t sleep and as my cellphone was close from me I simply wachted porn agin. I could not even think about it y´know, like, course it´d make bad for me, but at the moment I didn´t think that. So now I can´t take my cellphone to the bad again, I need to put it away from me on those moments that is easy to relapse, like sleep time or when I come to th bathroom to take a shower.
 
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Insomnia is rough. How else could you handle it when it happens? Glycine powder works for me.
 
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