Hi and thanks for reading.
04/25/2024. I want this to be the last (and first) day of my new life.
Have been fighting porn for years. Probably like a lot of you here. I actually had a thread in the 20-29 group, but as it does, porn has stuck around, and I've got older. So time to join the next decade and throw myself back into the fight.
I realized today, after my PMO, that I really. do. not. want. to. live. this. life. (of porn use that is). I'll be honest, I PMOd today for roughly 4-6hrs. Just got lost in it. As I am want to do.
And after it's over, the common feelings come - regret, angst. And an iron determination (that seems to last a week/month/ few months if I'm lucky).
So I've decided to start a new journal of rebooting. I'll try to post here regularly, at least a couple of times a week. And I'll try to be involved more in supporting the rest of you brave souls fighting P on your own journey. I'm determined - today - to put at least a 20 minutes or so a day into recovery work. I'll look at reading, programs: all that I am involved in I'll post here. And I also want to make a promise to myself, to be involved in this forum/community - to read and support the others here on the same journey as me - which I have know I've slacked at doing in the past.
So day 1 tomorrow. And then, god willing, a long number of days in succession.
04/25/2024. I want this to be the last (and first) day of my new life.
Have been fighting porn for years. Probably like a lot of you here. I actually had a thread in the 20-29 group, but as it does, porn has stuck around, and I've got older. So time to join the next decade and throw myself back into the fight.
I realized today, after my PMO, that I really. do. not. want. to. live. this. life. (of porn use that is). I'll be honest, I PMOd today for roughly 4-6hrs. Just got lost in it. As I am want to do.
And after it's over, the common feelings come - regret, angst. And an iron determination (that seems to last a week/month/ few months if I'm lucky).
So I've decided to start a new journal of rebooting. I'll try to post here regularly, at least a couple of times a week. And I'll try to be involved more in supporting the rest of you brave souls fighting P on your own journey. I'm determined - today - to put at least a 20 minutes or so a day into recovery work. I'll look at reading, programs: all that I am involved in I'll post here. And I also want to make a promise to myself, to be involved in this forum/community - to read and support the others here on the same journey as me - which I have know I've slacked at doing in the past.
So day 1 tomorrow. And then, god willing, a long number of days in succession.