Sometimes I am scared

Sometimes I am scared that I won't be able to kick this addiction because I have been trying to quit for 2 years but the most I have gotten was 43 days in which my damn anxiety got out of control and I relapsed. This was in October but ever since I have not gotten past 10 days...I feel bad but I won't give up. I know that PMO numbs my pains because everytime I feel pain then straight to the bathroom haha. I am 19 years old and do not want to reach 20 years old with this addiction! I want to succeed!!!
 
Hey man I turn 19 on the 30th in my first year of university living In residence and it sucks because I have no motivation to talk to any of the girls I see! But I have been struggling for probably 3-4 years with this problem and the longest I went was 21 days! I kepttelling myself I won't cheat anymore but always do between day 4-7 now I'm on day 6 and feeling good. I am determined to go the long haul on this reboot try and I am confident I can do it! If I can so can you. It helps if you block porn on both your computer and phone and try to stay away from anything that shows even girls in bikinis and things like that. Keep your head up and hopefully before weboth turn 20 this problem will be part of our last and we can look forward to a brighter future :)
 
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