I'm new here. New to writing. Definitely new to writing about my feelings. But its time to start new.
I remember the first time I got a boner I was on my trampoline and I laid on my stomach and WAZAM! Boner! What the FUCK is this!?! Hmmmm this feels good. I was probably in 5th grade. Let the madness begin, right?
So now I'm about to be 26. I've known that there's no way watching porn every night was good for ones brain, or soul, or spirit, or karma, or all that shit. But it's whats been normal for me. You can't just eat candy your whole life and then start eating spinach. Nobody told us that porn would make us hermit like individuals who might as well be living in shanty houses in the middle of the woods jerking off til the sun comes up. Then again, nobody told my grandpa smoking cigarettes would kill him when he was in his 60s from smoking since he was 17. I just hope I don't get a tumor on my pecker amiright.
So here's what I'm going to do. I've already signed up for this site. Which in my world is a level of commitment that is unheard of. I'm going to stop jerking off and watching porn. At some point in our lives, enough is enough right? Why wait til tomorrow when we can conquer our goals today? I've been trying to stop watching porn for the past year. And let's start out this relationship with honesty, shall we. I've done a lot better this year than I ever have since i started. But I need complete abstinence. 0 tolerance. I can't hold myself accountable so maybe, just maybe, if I write on here and could get some responses from others like me, I could finally kick this habit and be free. That's why we're all here right?
My goal is to completely quit but I'm going to start off small and try to go for 20 days. As of yesterday I was at day 16 and wouldn't you fuuucking know it. 4 hour binge. Out of fucking no where too. I looked up a picture of Iggy Azalea because I didn't really know what she looked like. And then it was like hmm Iggy Azalea nude? OK. Then there was a pic of some randho getting pounded. And then it was like, OK. Click. Then the rest is history. Iggy you sneaky unfancy bitch! Look what you did to my new ski jacket.
OK so if anyone has some helpful tips to throw my way I would much appreciate it. I have to be on the computer at least once a day because I have online classes. So I can't just eliminate that entirely like I would like to. I have normal people hobbies and a potential girl friend I've been talking to for about a month now. So things are looking up for me. I havent been in a relationship in about 3 years now and I know if I can just move from porn to the real thing my chances of beating this would increase dramatically. By the way the past 3 years have been the lowest in my life. I'm just now on the rise again.
I'm for real this time. Fuck you porn. Fuck your dirty mouth. I'm out.
P.S.
Be back soon
I remember the first time I got a boner I was on my trampoline and I laid on my stomach and WAZAM! Boner! What the FUCK is this!?! Hmmmm this feels good. I was probably in 5th grade. Let the madness begin, right?
So now I'm about to be 26. I've known that there's no way watching porn every night was good for ones brain, or soul, or spirit, or karma, or all that shit. But it's whats been normal for me. You can't just eat candy your whole life and then start eating spinach. Nobody told us that porn would make us hermit like individuals who might as well be living in shanty houses in the middle of the woods jerking off til the sun comes up. Then again, nobody told my grandpa smoking cigarettes would kill him when he was in his 60s from smoking since he was 17. I just hope I don't get a tumor on my pecker amiright.
So here's what I'm going to do. I've already signed up for this site. Which in my world is a level of commitment that is unheard of. I'm going to stop jerking off and watching porn. At some point in our lives, enough is enough right? Why wait til tomorrow when we can conquer our goals today? I've been trying to stop watching porn for the past year. And let's start out this relationship with honesty, shall we. I've done a lot better this year than I ever have since i started. But I need complete abstinence. 0 tolerance. I can't hold myself accountable so maybe, just maybe, if I write on here and could get some responses from others like me, I could finally kick this habit and be free. That's why we're all here right?
My goal is to completely quit but I'm going to start off small and try to go for 20 days. As of yesterday I was at day 16 and wouldn't you fuuucking know it. 4 hour binge. Out of fucking no where too. I looked up a picture of Iggy Azalea because I didn't really know what she looked like. And then it was like hmm Iggy Azalea nude? OK. Then there was a pic of some randho getting pounded. And then it was like, OK. Click. Then the rest is history. Iggy you sneaky unfancy bitch! Look what you did to my new ski jacket.
OK so if anyone has some helpful tips to throw my way I would much appreciate it. I have to be on the computer at least once a day because I have online classes. So I can't just eliminate that entirely like I would like to. I have normal people hobbies and a potential girl friend I've been talking to for about a month now. So things are looking up for me. I havent been in a relationship in about 3 years now and I know if I can just move from porn to the real thing my chances of beating this would increase dramatically. By the way the past 3 years have been the lowest in my life. I'm just now on the rise again.
I'm for real this time. Fuck you porn. Fuck your dirty mouth. I'm out.
P.S.
Be back soon