Went 68 days and relasped by MO (to erotica) and just now after almost going 3 weeks (AND having my first ever wet dream in my life) I relapsed by PMOing. That's right, I gave in and watched porn, Fully PMOing, not once, but twice for the first time in almost 3 months. I'm just so frustrated and scared I'll never get better. Here, I was making progress and now I feel like this huge relaspe messed everything up. I know people say just no PMO is not enough: you must change your lifestyle but it's so hard to change everything. I'm always going to have some alone time and it's those times that the urge to want to PMO or at least edge are the strongest.... As much as I wanna make it past way more the. 90 days and beat this addiction, it's just really degrading when relapses keep happening... The first was after 68 days and it was pure accidental but this time was only 3 weeks and I just gave in, knowing the consequences but not strong enough to fight off the urge... I feel like I'm trying so hard but my mind and body are growing tired and weak especially with all this up and down behavior I've been doing.... Fml.