silvercrest
Member
Hi,
I started watching porn when I was about 13 so it has been now about 25 years of watching p!
Tried to quit many many times. Longest period was about a year ago, when my first baby was born. I was so excited about this and so focused on this new life that 30 days went by without p.
Then by accident I saw something p - graphic and that literally felt as an electric shock in my brain.
Then it was all back.
I do not have PIED. No problems in bed with my wife of 5 years. Although marital sex could be much more frequent. It is now something like once for 2 weeks or even worse.
The reasons I hate p are mostly religious but also I do not want to be slave of this stuff. I want to be strong and want to be good role model for my little daughter.
I want to be honest with my wife and in my congregation.
I also want to focus on work when I am working and not constantly fighting the urges not to open some p sites. I work for myself being an accountant and know that I could be much more productive without p.
I would go to bed earlier and would be much happier in my life.
I know I am an addict and I want to quit.
I think that maybe this site will give me some extra boost that I was lacking in my previous attempts, which all were done by myself. Altough I told my wife about my addiction when we were courting and after we got married once I told her that I watched p that day but it made her crying. After that I kept all to myself.
I opened this account today and wrote this first ever journal post about my problem because today, 2 days without p, I already opened my Opera, private window, ready to watch p. And this has to stop.
I started watching porn when I was about 13 so it has been now about 25 years of watching p!
Tried to quit many many times. Longest period was about a year ago, when my first baby was born. I was so excited about this and so focused on this new life that 30 days went by without p.
Then by accident I saw something p - graphic and that literally felt as an electric shock in my brain.
Then it was all back.
I do not have PIED. No problems in bed with my wife of 5 years. Although marital sex could be much more frequent. It is now something like once for 2 weeks or even worse.
The reasons I hate p are mostly religious but also I do not want to be slave of this stuff. I want to be strong and want to be good role model for my little daughter.
I want to be honest with my wife and in my congregation.
I also want to focus on work when I am working and not constantly fighting the urges not to open some p sites. I work for myself being an accountant and know that I could be much more productive without p.
I would go to bed earlier and would be much happier in my life.
I know I am an addict and I want to quit.
I think that maybe this site will give me some extra boost that I was lacking in my previous attempts, which all were done by myself. Altough I told my wife about my addiction when we were courting and after we got married once I told her that I watched p that day but it made her crying. After that I kept all to myself.
I opened this account today and wrote this first ever journal post about my problem because today, 2 days without p, I already opened my Opera, private window, ready to watch p. And this has to stop.
