Phase2
Well-Known Member
Be strong buddy. BTW, I got rid of Skype from my computer. At first I thought skype was 'ok' because it was a real person on the other end of the line and we were talking and reacting to each other, but after reading YBOP, it's just chasing dopamine and making progress harder to attain. Skype is still fantasy. Hope you are off to a great start in 2015!
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Steve
Guest
Fappy & phase2-
Hey guys.
The whole skype thing has calmed down. My friend and I are clothed and just talk like any two friends would. I absolutely find her to be gorgeous beyond belief but she is helping me by not turning me on. As crazy as it may sound we spend upwards of 8 hours everyday chatting as we are truly best friends. It sucks to live so far away from her but that is my reality.
I work from home and am on the internet all day 10-16 hours, 7 days a week. Good thing is I've said no to porn so I don't even glance at it even though the opportunity is there all day.
Giving up skype would mean to give up my friend and that simple will not happen so I manage my life, urges and viewing to things that are good for me. As I said, it is weird but everyones situation is different.
I think I've found that while I did love the variety of porn, I don't miss it or even crave it so I don't think I was addicted to it but I was certainly addicted to the "high" I would get from watching it endlessly and masturbating. The jury is still out on whether my PIED is getting better as I am trying not to test it even though I failed a few days ago.
I'm a tough guy and appreciate a stern word now and then as sometimes people need to be bitchslapped back into reality. Thanks for looking out for me guys.
Hey guys.
The whole skype thing has calmed down. My friend and I are clothed and just talk like any two friends would. I absolutely find her to be gorgeous beyond belief but she is helping me by not turning me on. As crazy as it may sound we spend upwards of 8 hours everyday chatting as we are truly best friends. It sucks to live so far away from her but that is my reality.
I work from home and am on the internet all day 10-16 hours, 7 days a week. Good thing is I've said no to porn so I don't even glance at it even though the opportunity is there all day.
Giving up skype would mean to give up my friend and that simple will not happen so I manage my life, urges and viewing to things that are good for me. As I said, it is weird but everyones situation is different.
I think I've found that while I did love the variety of porn, I don't miss it or even crave it so I don't think I was addicted to it but I was certainly addicted to the "high" I would get from watching it endlessly and masturbating. The jury is still out on whether my PIED is getting better as I am trying not to test it even though I failed a few days ago.
I'm a tough guy and appreciate a stern word now and then as sometimes people need to be bitchslapped back into reality. Thanks for looking out for me guys.
lyon03
Respected Member
Hey brother. Often when people Reboot, their mind does what I call a 'lite beer'. It's like when an alcoholic switches to Bud Lite and calls this a victory. It's not a victory. Does this sound like your porn addiction? Spending 8 hours a day looking at a screen, getting aroused, feeling obsessed, losing track of time, etc. Yes there is another person on the screen and yes you're trying not to masturbate, but it sounds a lot like PMO-lite. Your addiction is f*cking with you. Your call brother. Be well and keep posting.
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Steve
Guest
Lyon-
Maybe in some ways I am trying to justify what I do by talking with my friend. I love her so yes I enjoy our conversations but I am not being aroused. She is cleaning the kitchen, doing laundry and I am working and doing my things and we just chat as we roam around the house. Sometimes like any relationship we are caught up in our own thing for a while and there is no talking. I've known her for so long now this is normal (to us). We cut out the sexy stuff so I can heal.
Without seeing her, I would have no contact with people at all throughout a day. Work never ends and I'm too tired after 12-14 hours of work a day to go out. Thank goodness I will see her "in the flesh" in about a month.
Still in a flatline with no libido or morning wood. It's been 30 days with no Porn and I don't miss it but my body feels no different. Like everyone I am looking for signs along the way that things are getting better but I have to be patient. If I don't see improvement by day 90 I will go to the Dr. to see if there is anything physically with me.
Maybe in some ways I am trying to justify what I do by talking with my friend. I love her so yes I enjoy our conversations but I am not being aroused. She is cleaning the kitchen, doing laundry and I am working and doing my things and we just chat as we roam around the house. Sometimes like any relationship we are caught up in our own thing for a while and there is no talking. I've known her for so long now this is normal (to us). We cut out the sexy stuff so I can heal.
Without seeing her, I would have no contact with people at all throughout a day. Work never ends and I'm too tired after 12-14 hours of work a day to go out. Thank goodness I will see her "in the flesh" in about a month.
Still in a flatline with no libido or morning wood. It's been 30 days with no Porn and I don't miss it but my body feels no different. Like everyone I am looking for signs along the way that things are getting better but I have to be patient. If I don't see improvement by day 90 I will go to the Dr. to see if there is anything physically with me.
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Steve
Guest
I feel as though my penis is disassociated from my body. When I have the occasional morning erection (maybe 50% hard at best) I do not feel a strong surge or sexual energy. It's like my penis does its own thing but doesn't send any signals to the rest of my body that it should be excited. A little blood flow down there for a short period of time and then nothing else.
Any ideas what is happening with the body that would cause this? With a flatline I guess I understand that their is no libido, few to no erections and low energy but what is the deal with the disassociation? I can't feel or enjoy in anyway whatever random erections that come along.
Anyone else experience this?
Any ideas what is happening with the body that would cause this? With a flatline I guess I understand that their is no libido, few to no erections and low energy but what is the deal with the disassociation? I can't feel or enjoy in anyway whatever random erections that come along.
Anyone else experience this?