bumblerino
Member
Guys, I'm in trouble.
I started my reboot just over a few months ago and I haven't watched porn since. Back when I used to watch I used to have cam shows with one particular woman. In this whole time I haven't had any form of intimacy with anyone as I find it difficult to socialise with people let alone meet women.
About a week ago we started chatting again - just normal chats via Skype (no provocative language). I mentioned the possibility of us meeting and she has said that she would meet for a weekend for 3k. Now I know full well that she just needs the money. Other than trusting me enough to meet me there's no other feelings at her end.
At this stage I'm finding it impossible to resist going. Partly because of my general lack of intimacy but also because this is a woman who I have a soft spot for and is some one I have fantasised about. I did try to set up a meeting with her before my reboot and resisted but this time I don't seem able to decide against it - my brain is just saying "do it".
She knows about my ED issues and that i'm rebooting but again - as long as she gets the money it's obviously not an issue for her. She didn't say that but that's how I read the situation. I've not paid her yet but right now I can't stop myself going through with it.
I started my reboot just over a few months ago and I haven't watched porn since. Back when I used to watch I used to have cam shows with one particular woman. In this whole time I haven't had any form of intimacy with anyone as I find it difficult to socialise with people let alone meet women.
About a week ago we started chatting again - just normal chats via Skype (no provocative language). I mentioned the possibility of us meeting and she has said that she would meet for a weekend for 3k. Now I know full well that she just needs the money. Other than trusting me enough to meet me there's no other feelings at her end.
At this stage I'm finding it impossible to resist going. Partly because of my general lack of intimacy but also because this is a woman who I have a soft spot for and is some one I have fantasised about. I did try to set up a meeting with her before my reboot and resisted but this time I don't seem able to decide against it - my brain is just saying "do it".
She knows about my ED issues and that i'm rebooting but again - as long as she gets the money it's obviously not an issue for her. She didn't say that but that's how I read the situation. I've not paid her yet but right now I can't stop myself going through with it.