nD86
Member
I've been on this forum for a little under a month now; reading a little here and there, soaking up the insights and discussing views about this addiction. In the meantime I haven't engaged in P and, perhaps foolishly, feel that I have it in my control to make this a thing of the past, for good.
One thing that has struck me is that many members on here have a Christian orientation towards recovery, particularly those members who adhere to a twelve or thirteen step programme. To each his own, and what works for one person might not work for another, so that's fine..
What I'm wondering though, broadly speaking, is what are the attitudes of members towards recovery and life as an "ex-addict?"
I have noticed that there are a lot of neurological insights on addiction - brain pathways, dopamine and the like - but then there's also people who take a more religious attitude and adhere to a programme and its dominant attitude toward addiction. Many, it seems, combine scientific insights with religious attitudes. There are also others who seem reborn - got their act together on all of life's fronts; become more assertive, taken control, etc.; fully recovered, you might say.
So what I'm wondering is:
What is a recovered addict? Is there such a thing as recovery or is this a lifelong struggle? What do you base that position on?
From a practical point of view, I have good reason to ask these questions, because I have what modern psychology calls a personality that is "prone to addiction." (I have about eight or nine things that I use to give me that dopamine boost - none of them out of control, but together they contribute to what might be referred to as a "dopamine addiction." At least, that's how I see it...)
I am trying to find ways to deal with an out of control dopamine system in my life, but signing up to a forum and keeping a log for each of them just isn't workable. I have made big steps with breaking P, which honestly, I think has been the most destructive for my self-esteem, and noticing that as I become free from these self-esteem attacks, I have become clearer about other issues in my life. Sometimes it seems though that dealing with addictions, I am playing a game of whack-a-mole. I strike down on one and another head pops up somewhere else. I don't have the presence of mind or motivation to be a "recovered addict" in eight or nine different areas...
My own view is that I need to be dealing with dopamine irregularities in a far broader sense than purely P, then I am simply a recovering / recovered dopamine abuser. To simple to be true? I don't know. I am not sure how all this works at this point in time and would really appreciate some insights to help clear my thoughts on this and help me move forward.
One thing that has struck me is that many members on here have a Christian orientation towards recovery, particularly those members who adhere to a twelve or thirteen step programme. To each his own, and what works for one person might not work for another, so that's fine..
What I'm wondering though, broadly speaking, is what are the attitudes of members towards recovery and life as an "ex-addict?"
I have noticed that there are a lot of neurological insights on addiction - brain pathways, dopamine and the like - but then there's also people who take a more religious attitude and adhere to a programme and its dominant attitude toward addiction. Many, it seems, combine scientific insights with religious attitudes. There are also others who seem reborn - got their act together on all of life's fronts; become more assertive, taken control, etc.; fully recovered, you might say.
So what I'm wondering is:
What is a recovered addict? Is there such a thing as recovery or is this a lifelong struggle? What do you base that position on?
From a practical point of view, I have good reason to ask these questions, because I have what modern psychology calls a personality that is "prone to addiction." (I have about eight or nine things that I use to give me that dopamine boost - none of them out of control, but together they contribute to what might be referred to as a "dopamine addiction." At least, that's how I see it...)
I am trying to find ways to deal with an out of control dopamine system in my life, but signing up to a forum and keeping a log for each of them just isn't workable. I have made big steps with breaking P, which honestly, I think has been the most destructive for my self-esteem, and noticing that as I become free from these self-esteem attacks, I have become clearer about other issues in my life. Sometimes it seems though that dealing with addictions, I am playing a game of whack-a-mole. I strike down on one and another head pops up somewhere else. I don't have the presence of mind or motivation to be a "recovered addict" in eight or nine different areas...
My own view is that I need to be dealing with dopamine irregularities in a far broader sense than purely P, then I am simply a recovering / recovered dopamine abuser. To simple to be true? I don't know. I am not sure how all this works at this point in time and would really appreciate some insights to help clear my thoughts on this and help me move forward.