17 Year old addict

[needtostopporn]

Hello

First of all, and I don't mean to sound arrogant, I am intelligent. I am one of the most motivated teens you'll ever come across, and work extremely hard academically. I want to go to medical school. I know that porn will stop me from achieving my goals, but I can't seem to stop. I have been masterbating since the age of 5 (I promise its the truth), and have been watching porn for 5 or six years now. The more I watch, the harder the porn becomes, in order to achieve the same high. I've read tons of advice on how to stop, and it hasn't seemed to help. People have recommended exercise, and I've made that a part of my life, to the extent that I am one of the fittest people in my class, and yet is hasn't helped my addiction.

Software to stop porn will not help, as I always find a way to get rid of it.
Due to a difficult life, with family issues and seeing a loved one collapse and and die in an airport in front of me, I am not emotionally stable, I look to porn for a way out, even though it makes my life worse.

So that's my story, I would really appreciate advice

 

[marsturm]

Hi needtostopporn, It's really fantastic you're reaching out. I suggest you read a lot of the posts on this forum to let it sink in what will happen to you if you continue to PMO. If that doesn't seem to help, try to be happy about the fact that your consciousness has led you here and keeps on telling you that you had better stop. You can't force a jump in consciousness, and it WILL come to you. Please inform yourself on YBOP and read Gabe's post. Also watch his vids on youtube. If you want to know more about how your state of mind determines what outcomes you have in life, please watch the following: http://www.3pgc.org/photos-videos/details/?m=1167
Good luck to you. We can do it!