Have I relapsed?

[ChalieSunn]

I recently had a loss of will power and watched porn on the internet for about 5 minutes. I did find it arousing and did get erect however I didn't masturbate or even touch my dick. Does this count as a relapse? Is doing this no better than masturbating to porn?

Thanks guys

 

[Yuri]

If You could stop it then Your willpower seems very solid and You didnt loose all your progress for sure. The more aroused we get the more dopamine we receive. If You edge and can't calm yourself down then that's a big relapse in my opinion and that's a problem. But if You could get over it quite fast then then You din't loose much of your progress. 5 minutes would be very much for me if that's something i really like. I had a loss of willpower too and wanted to try myself out and had a glimpse on one vdeo for maybe the same 5 minutes and i edged. I didn't even touch myself but i edged after i stopped and i couldn't calm down. I wasn't lucky at all then because girl in the video was rarely gorgeous.I didn't know what to do. I found out right after that edging is probably the worst possible option as you receive more and more dopamine and can't calm down as you didn't orgasm and receive a relief. Of course thats my experience and opinion...

 

[Fappy]

Completely agree with yuri here.
If you fulfilled your addictions thirst for that orgasm reward while watching porn itd be a relapse. And when that surge of dopamine hits you, do something to stop it from continuing. If it continues to rise it starts to take over, as im sure you are well aware.
I would edge for hours, my eyes red from staring at the screen and scanning for videos that would get me off. Then id be interrupted, like my lunch break would be over or id have to see a customer, but id still have that dull ache of dopamine in my gut. My mind would race with images of the porn id edged to and i couldnt think straight. Id excuse myself for a smoke break then fap one out in the stairwell in a few seconds.
Dont worry, you didnt relapse! Good control mate! 

 

[challenged]

I recently had a loss of will power and watched porn on the internet for about 5 minutes. I did find it arousing and did get erect however I didn't masturbate or even touch my dick. Does this count as a relapse? Is doing this no better than masturbating to porn?

If your goal is to eliminate any porn whatsoever from your life and never to intentionally watch it again, then I think you could say you had a relapse.  OTOH, if your goal is to reboot from a habit of regularly watching and masturbating to porn and to avoid further episodes of PMO or PME, then it would seem it is not a relapse.

To some extent, whether you call something a "relapse" or not is just a matter of a label, and sometimes labels can obscure what is important.  Whether you call something a "relapse" or not does not change what occurred -- either in terms of a positive or negative step.  And calling something a "relapse" does not mean you are back at square one as if you never started a reboot.  Personally, I think it is more important to focus on the journey and the big picture, and not to become overly concerned about what happened for five minutes and what category those five minutes might fit in.  But I also agree with that Yuri said, in that it seems like you exercised some willpower.

Hang in there. 

 

[jstock]

I wa my phones erasing  all my videos  on my favorite porn site. I ended loaded a 2 minute movie, but I only watched  maybe  30 seconds. I felt ashamed. I turned  it off, and closed that site out forever. I don't consider  it a relapse. I was actually  kind of grossed  out. My life is worth  more, than watching  that sh*t, on

 

[indiana]

it's a process, right? You stopped and got on here, shared where you were at and now your're moving forward. Good job.

You know, use this as a lesson to help you see where you may be vulnerable. What were you feeling when you watched that video? What could you do differently?

You stopped, good job my friend.
indiana