Hi Guys,
I read this forum for a while, and now I feel like I need some moral support, and bit of an re-assurance.
Throughout my porn-watching history, I never really got to the point where I escalated to ridiculous genres of porn, it was more like masturbating to the same thing over and over again, with more and more of a soft dick. As you know, to get off from your touch, you don't necessarily have to get rock-hard. So my post porn-feelings were not only 'gosh, what did I just masturbate to', but also 'gosh, it's really not cool that my dick is this soft'.
I always noticed that if I skip a week or just a few days than I need less novel types of porn and my erections are better, so I always intuitively experimented with weaning myself off of porn, however, it was always kind of there.
So here is problem number 1: I'm not someone who escalated to the extremes of the extreme, I'm more like someone who kind of "burnt himself out" through fantasysing about kind of "normal things" a lot. I could literally force orgasms when my dick was waay too soft for any kind of real intercourse. What do we think of this?
Another important note is, that I was pretty much always able to get orgasms through oral sex. Sometimes it really excited me and could get rock-solid, sometimes it went with a mediocre erection, but usually I was able to do it. I'm pretty sure I needed some fantasies to get me going most of the times, but I could in fact get hard enough to get a blowjob. Whenever someone would propose to have sex during a blowjob, it almost dissapointed me - the thought of real sex was much less exciting than someone giving me a had - that's the very sad truth.
At this point, having completed 70 days of NOFAP and being very involved with a girl, I received a blowjob - was kind of a mistake - and to my big dissapointment, my penis, but more importantly my libido, could not recover for the rest of the night. It was as if someone just sucked out blood of my penis and dopamine from my head.
So how am I doing, what do you think? The fact that I do remember getting rock solid for oral sex even not long ago is encouraging, but at the same time, all those porn sessions spent with a semi-soft dick is kind of scary. I still have some - not real loud, yet scary sounds in my head, saying that I may actually have some kind of problem with my penis itself.
I read this forum for a while, and now I feel like I need some moral support, and bit of an re-assurance.
Throughout my porn-watching history, I never really got to the point where I escalated to ridiculous genres of porn, it was more like masturbating to the same thing over and over again, with more and more of a soft dick. As you know, to get off from your touch, you don't necessarily have to get rock-hard. So my post porn-feelings were not only 'gosh, what did I just masturbate to', but also 'gosh, it's really not cool that my dick is this soft'.
I always noticed that if I skip a week or just a few days than I need less novel types of porn and my erections are better, so I always intuitively experimented with weaning myself off of porn, however, it was always kind of there.
So here is problem number 1: I'm not someone who escalated to the extremes of the extreme, I'm more like someone who kind of "burnt himself out" through fantasysing about kind of "normal things" a lot. I could literally force orgasms when my dick was waay too soft for any kind of real intercourse. What do we think of this?
Another important note is, that I was pretty much always able to get orgasms through oral sex. Sometimes it really excited me and could get rock-solid, sometimes it went with a mediocre erection, but usually I was able to do it. I'm pretty sure I needed some fantasies to get me going most of the times, but I could in fact get hard enough to get a blowjob. Whenever someone would propose to have sex during a blowjob, it almost dissapointed me - the thought of real sex was much less exciting than someone giving me a had - that's the very sad truth.
At this point, having completed 70 days of NOFAP and being very involved with a girl, I received a blowjob - was kind of a mistake - and to my big dissapointment, my penis, but more importantly my libido, could not recover for the rest of the night. It was as if someone just sucked out blood of my penis and dopamine from my head.
So how am I doing, what do you think? The fact that I do remember getting rock solid for oral sex even not long ago is encouraging, but at the same time, all those porn sessions spent with a semi-soft dick is kind of scary. I still have some - not real loud, yet scary sounds in my head, saying that I may actually have some kind of problem with my penis itself.
