Hi,
I'm 30 year old and I start now a new reboot. I got a relapse over xMas period. It's quite late, and I work tomorrow, but I want to write it, because I has tried often of doing it alone, but I'm not really successful recently. It's since 4 year I discovered Your Brain On Porn, and it change my life, really. Before I tought I was gay, because I wasn't able to get hard, but once I stop porn, I was ok. I got a first girl friend, which was more a fuck friend, so I had notting to lose, I saw that withtout porn, I didn't had any ED. But the relation didn't last (luckly) and after a couple of month, I meet my new girl friend.
She know my past, and she is quite comprehensive and we deeply ove each other. We live together since 1 and half year, and I know I want to libve with here the longest I can. I love her, we got a lot of affection and nice conversation. But we don't get a lot of sex, which bring tentation, especially when she rush at school, like before xMas. I know I can't blame her, isn't her problem, it's mine, and I got that problem a long time before I meet her. I start to look at porn at 12.. But I don't want to be dependant anymore of that things, to be happy in my famillial life.
So I tried a lots of thing, but the computer is my sources of leasure, which is bad too. I will write more about it soon, but I saw that there is for me a bigt link between video game and porn. So I shut down Steam, except for that xMas, foolish me. But mostly, I was relying mostly on Cold Turkey to block the principal bad site, the site I liked to see. It's cool, because it make it harder to watch, but with time, I just found new path. It's like fobidding an alchoolic to take Beer and Spirit, he will take Wine. The only thing I really need to get out of that addiction, it's willingness. And to help myself, I need to tell people of my process and to be liable to others. So here I take my engagement, I'm to my day 0 and tomorrow I will come back for my day 1.
I'm 30 year old and I start now a new reboot. I got a relapse over xMas period. It's quite late, and I work tomorrow, but I want to write it, because I has tried often of doing it alone, but I'm not really successful recently. It's since 4 year I discovered Your Brain On Porn, and it change my life, really. Before I tought I was gay, because I wasn't able to get hard, but once I stop porn, I was ok. I got a first girl friend, which was more a fuck friend, so I had notting to lose, I saw that withtout porn, I didn't had any ED. But the relation didn't last (luckly) and after a couple of month, I meet my new girl friend.
She know my past, and she is quite comprehensive and we deeply ove each other. We live together since 1 and half year, and I know I want to libve with here the longest I can. I love her, we got a lot of affection and nice conversation. But we don't get a lot of sex, which bring tentation, especially when she rush at school, like before xMas. I know I can't blame her, isn't her problem, it's mine, and I got that problem a long time before I meet her. I start to look at porn at 12.. But I don't want to be dependant anymore of that things, to be happy in my famillial life.
So I tried a lots of thing, but the computer is my sources of leasure, which is bad too. I will write more about it soon, but I saw that there is for me a bigt link between video game and porn. So I shut down Steam, except for that xMas, foolish me. But mostly, I was relying mostly on Cold Turkey to block the principal bad site, the site I liked to see. It's cool, because it make it harder to watch, but with time, I just found new path. It's like fobidding an alchoolic to take Beer and Spirit, he will take Wine. The only thing I really need to get out of that addiction, it's willingness. And to help myself, I need to tell people of my process and to be liable to others. So here I take my engagement, I'm to my day 0 and tomorrow I will come back for my day 1.