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Lilliput Haunt
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I wrote on the Success Stories board a little while ago, thinking I was cured, but it seems as though I've been resigned to my old ways. I'd like to briefly analyze why, and hopefully some of you brilliant writers can comment on it and give me some advice.
- For many years, I struggled with much of what is common on this board. Severe ED to the point of impotence and no orgasm in sight. From the first night to very recently, and I have tried with several women over the years with more or less similar results, which is to say flaccidity, non-arousal and boredom. Porn usage was regular, and PMO was something I did about 3-5 times a week. Now, after a lot of time and effort, I found a girl who had similar issues with orgasm as me, which helped in being able to speak about it. I eventually was able to achieve orgasm, although it was rare and certainly did not occur every time, and it only occurred in the cowgirl position, and usually with some amount of porn fantasy going on in my head.
- About a year ago I learned about YBOP.com and Reboot Nation, and I naively challenged myself to 240 days of abstinence from all PMO. This was during a military deployment in Afghanistan. A lot of people might criticize this as a high-stress environment where that kind of stuff would be pointless because of the temptation, boredom and stress, but I took the opposite view, and convinced myself that being away from high-speed porn, and first-world temptations, and being in a quieter environment, at least in the sense of television, video games, internet and so on, would help me achieve my goals.
- Long story short, 240 days did not happen, although I did have what I would consider a successful period of abstinence. I would say I relapsed maybe once every 30 days, and only once with porn involved, which may not sound impressive, but lo and behold, upon returning to the United States, I brought a girl who I was familiar with back to my house and had an absolutely amazing time with her. For the first time in my life, I could completely let go. I felt like I was going to O as soon as she got on top of me, and more than that, I flipped her over into missionary, just to make sure it wasn't just the cowgirl position that was doing it. I don't think anyone has ever been so happy to be a premature ejaculator.
- However, shortly after, I 'rewarded' myself with some PMO, which as anyone could probably imagine was a very SMH sort of decision. Soon after, the problems returned. I was thinking however, that maybe there was more to this issue than just pornography, and that maybe my time away from high-speed internet, social media, email, YouTube, Reddit, news sites and a thousand other distracting items were contributing. I did some research and found some revealing data that time online contributes to a sort of information addiction, where for some people in particular, being online releases small amounts of dopamine just by browsing. Logically, I found it pretty convincing. I usually have about 5-10 tabs open at any one time, and as soon as one thing becomes dull, I just refresh the page on another. It isn't much of a stretch to imagine that it's a similar rush to pornography and possibly is doing the same thing to my head and even contributes in some ways.
I wonder if anyone here has thoughts on the subject? Do you think multi-tabbed browsing of any kind could contribute to a higher dissatisfaction with life, and general boredom with sexuality, asexuality and a modified kind of PMO?
Anyway, I'm evidence that the program CAN work if you're persistent and consistent. That one night was one of the most wonderful things that I probably wont ever forget. I hope you all stick to the program, because it will work for you, if you let it.
- For many years, I struggled with much of what is common on this board. Severe ED to the point of impotence and no orgasm in sight. From the first night to very recently, and I have tried with several women over the years with more or less similar results, which is to say flaccidity, non-arousal and boredom. Porn usage was regular, and PMO was something I did about 3-5 times a week. Now, after a lot of time and effort, I found a girl who had similar issues with orgasm as me, which helped in being able to speak about it. I eventually was able to achieve orgasm, although it was rare and certainly did not occur every time, and it only occurred in the cowgirl position, and usually with some amount of porn fantasy going on in my head.
- About a year ago I learned about YBOP.com and Reboot Nation, and I naively challenged myself to 240 days of abstinence from all PMO. This was during a military deployment in Afghanistan. A lot of people might criticize this as a high-stress environment where that kind of stuff would be pointless because of the temptation, boredom and stress, but I took the opposite view, and convinced myself that being away from high-speed porn, and first-world temptations, and being in a quieter environment, at least in the sense of television, video games, internet and so on, would help me achieve my goals.
- Long story short, 240 days did not happen, although I did have what I would consider a successful period of abstinence. I would say I relapsed maybe once every 30 days, and only once with porn involved, which may not sound impressive, but lo and behold, upon returning to the United States, I brought a girl who I was familiar with back to my house and had an absolutely amazing time with her. For the first time in my life, I could completely let go. I felt like I was going to O as soon as she got on top of me, and more than that, I flipped her over into missionary, just to make sure it wasn't just the cowgirl position that was doing it. I don't think anyone has ever been so happy to be a premature ejaculator.
- However, shortly after, I 'rewarded' myself with some PMO, which as anyone could probably imagine was a very SMH sort of decision. Soon after, the problems returned. I was thinking however, that maybe there was more to this issue than just pornography, and that maybe my time away from high-speed internet, social media, email, YouTube, Reddit, news sites and a thousand other distracting items were contributing. I did some research and found some revealing data that time online contributes to a sort of information addiction, where for some people in particular, being online releases small amounts of dopamine just by browsing. Logically, I found it pretty convincing. I usually have about 5-10 tabs open at any one time, and as soon as one thing becomes dull, I just refresh the page on another. It isn't much of a stretch to imagine that it's a similar rush to pornography and possibly is doing the same thing to my head and even contributes in some ways.
I wonder if anyone here has thoughts on the subject? Do you think multi-tabbed browsing of any kind could contribute to a higher dissatisfaction with life, and general boredom with sexuality, asexuality and a modified kind of PMO?
Anyway, I'm evidence that the program CAN work if you're persistent and consistent. That one night was one of the most wonderful things that I probably wont ever forget. I hope you all stick to the program, because it will work for you, if you let it.