Warning...Chaser Effect is real and it is powerful!

[Steve]

I've been on this site around a month now and thought that it was going to be a breeze to go from watch cam models all day to cold turkey. Made it 18 days before a relapse, then went another 9 days then it all fell apart. The two times that I relapsed this month were single episodes and I was easily able to get right back on track. My current stretch has been horrible. The last 4 days I have been on a MO binge. Probably the hardest I have been in over a year but I orgasm once and within 10 minutes I'm back up and ready to go again. No edging as I normally do, no escalation of images just the pure rush of wanting to get off as soon as possible. 

I've been dealing with a great deal of depression over the last 2 months and this past week has been the worst of it all. I have no guilt associated with it but I am disappointed that I let these urges control me. After the 1st orgasm 4 days ago, my body wants it all the time. The chaser effect is real and it can be a mother to deal with. I didn't realize I had triggers per se but am now realizing that certain situations can really get me in trouble (ie. lying in bed for long periods of time, being bored, being depressed and dwelling on it, thinking about what is all this really for anyway). 

Stay vigilant guys to the triggers in your life. After 30 days, I truly am starting over but with a greater understanding that pure willpower may not be enough, it is avoiding situations and thoughts that can innocently pull you in and then trap you.

For me it is one hour at a time....the addiction is stronger than I thought it was!

 

[brewster]

Have you started a journal? That has helped me the most. I don't know how many people read it or look at it, but just blogging my honest, open thoughts and experiences with my recovery is very therapeutic. Also as someone who is motivated by small chunks of things and crossing things off lists, the tickers are helpful that display the percentage towards your goal. Anything helps!

 

[Fappy]

Yeah the chaser effect can be disastrous to recovery. Learn what the chaser effect looks and feels like. Usually i get it after sex or some other sexual stimulation with my wife. Id look at porn, some amateur stuff as close to what we did as possible. Then id jerk off in the shower in the morning.

Fa.pp.Y

 

[Hoopdogg]

This concept scares me. I'm working on a clean 2015 and thinking this is going easier than I thought, but then I read your post and am underatanding that I may never be rid of the addiction.  I'm going to look into this and try to get as educated as I can.

Thanks for posting and keep fighting.

 

[marsturm]

Hey Steve man, Thanks for this powerful post. How are you? If you need any support, please PM me or blog some more. I know you can do it and I know that feeling depressive sucks, and this is going to end! As long as I wanted to PMO, edge, or MO, I did it. It was all about my state of mind. I have to take into account that I'm an addict and that I need to be aware of dopamine surfing, which leads to edging, which leads to MO, which leads to PMO, which leads to PMO binging, which leads to PIED, and it gets worse and worse and worse. There is NO JOY in P and I believe I have to get rid of the idea that I can't survive if I don't get off. The truth for me is: Wet dreams will take care of a surcharge, there's nothing else I need to do apart from not PMO'ing. Simple as that. Hang in there dude, we can do it! It's never too late, and better late than never. Although we are addicts, we are mentally healthy! Stay strong.

 

[Fappy]

Patrick hit the nail right on the head here. Smack!
There is nothing remotely good about porn. Nothing good can come from watching it, just a pissy little feeling of pleasure which doesnt come close to equaling the feeling of NOT watching it.
On the right track, just keep moving forward.

Fappah.

 

[ImInControl]

hi steve,
my suggestion is also; start an journal!..  it will help you much more than you will imagine.
I have not been where I am today, without the support of the people in here.

You are not alone.. we have all tried being in your situation. This reboot is not suppose to be easy.. so take on the journey head on!..

but please believe me,, im 30 days in or so, and I feel really really good!! much more than the 15years of P addiction combined.
I am sure you will get there as well!