I have to face it. I AM ADDICTED TO PORNOGRAPHY. Good lord, how did this all happen for me?? I am only 15!!!! I don't want to end up with my face blurred out on the T.V. show "Cops." I have to turn this around NOW. I've gotta get my life together. First of all, let me introduce myself, I am Harpo*. I have been watching pornography for about three years. I hope to one day become sober again. This is MY story, and I hope to inspire others who are having a difficult time with pornography, to become sober, as I am doing right now.
The story begins with an outgoing, funny, smart boy. (That's ME!!) who doesn't really know that much about sex and sexual encounters and what it means to have a real, true, wholesome sexual relationship. I didn't really know much, and what I did know (or at least what I thought I knew) was that the world was perfect and no one or nothing could hurt you or break your confidence "bubble." That bubble was broken as soon as I watched porn, for that very first time. And I promise you, reader, that bubble, will NEVER be around me again, I am all grown up. I know about the world, I know that the world sucks, and that sometimes you loose somthing you will never ever get back. That thing for me was dance. I loved dancing more than anything... but this past year, my porn/sexual addiction got the best of me and I was thrown out of my dance company (which I had been with for about 9+) years, for asking another little boy to show me his penis. (God, even as I type that, it makes me want to vomit.) There have been multiple "encounters" though. In eighth grade, on the school-bus home, I asked a little girl to show me her "thingy". I was kicked out of that school too. Oh reader, it may sound as though I am a terrible, awful person who should go curl up in the corner and die. I actually have some really good qualities, I am a wonderful son, brother, and student. I have many good qualities (as you all do) but we all have our things. My thing? Porn. Dear, dear reader, I ask you to share this with anyone you know struggling with an Pornography addiction. Reader, this is my story... What's yours?
The story begins with an outgoing, funny, smart boy. (That's ME!!) who doesn't really know that much about sex and sexual encounters and what it means to have a real, true, wholesome sexual relationship. I didn't really know much, and what I did know (or at least what I thought I knew) was that the world was perfect and no one or nothing could hurt you or break your confidence "bubble." That bubble was broken as soon as I watched porn, for that very first time. And I promise you, reader, that bubble, will NEVER be around me again, I am all grown up. I know about the world, I know that the world sucks, and that sometimes you loose somthing you will never ever get back. That thing for me was dance. I loved dancing more than anything... but this past year, my porn/sexual addiction got the best of me and I was thrown out of my dance company (which I had been with for about 9+) years, for asking another little boy to show me his penis. (God, even as I type that, it makes me want to vomit.) There have been multiple "encounters" though. In eighth grade, on the school-bus home, I asked a little girl to show me her "thingy". I was kicked out of that school too. Oh reader, it may sound as though I am a terrible, awful person who should go curl up in the corner and die. I actually have some really good qualities, I am a wonderful son, brother, and student. I have many good qualities (as you all do) but we all have our things. My thing? Porn. Dear, dear reader, I ask you to share this with anyone you know struggling with an Pornography addiction. Reader, this is my story... What's yours?