Rebooting

[dennisshipman]

Probably a cliche but I thought I was the only one who had developed a voracious, unhealthy appetite for pornography that has resulted in erectile dysfunction as well as a veritable host of associated problems. I did have a morning woody. But I still have no desire - i.e., normal libido. Wish me luck as I embark upon this latest journey in normalcy. I deleted all my porn, "favorites" websites, and since the New Year have begun exercising and meditating more, and worrying less 'bout artificial sexual stimuli. I do not know how long it will take for me to rewire my brain, but I did it to myself, and now have to deal with the unfortunate consequences...

 

[Phase2]

Welcome Dennis. If you haven't found it yet, check out this page. It has so much info about us guys with PIED. http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/erectile-dysfunction-question

Good luck buddy. Stay connected here for support.

 

[ready2go]

You're not alone Dennis.  We're all in this together, we've all been where you have been.  Thousands and thousands (more like millions and millions) of us are dealing with PIED or PE or DE or all the other shit that comes along with HSIP. 

You're in the right place.  Keep going, keep journaling, continue reading all the sites, watching the youtube presentations you'll find linked to, and keep helping us by being with us. 

Good luck man.  You can do this and we're here to back you up 100 percent.

 

[Dharmabum]

Welcome, Dennis.  Sorry for the circumstances that brought you here, but glad you're here.  You'll find a lot of guys on here eager to offer support, a sympathetic ear, and guidance when needed.

It's been a lifesaver for me.  And I'm convinced we can reclaim sane and sober lives. 

Every cliche is true:  It's one day at a time.  We're always just as close to the ditch no matter how long we're sober.  When you fall, you get back on the bike/horse and start again.  Forgive yourself. 

All those things we've heard people say in movies, read in self-help books, whatever - it's all true?and it can serve us well. 

Come here when you feel triggered, lonely, down, or even wanting to celebrate another day of doing the right things.  It's all good here.  Good to have friends on the journey who know what the path looks and feels like, for sure.

 

[notgivinup]

Hey Dennis...glad you are here. I'm in the same boat.
I'm on the journey to becoming the kind of guy that doesn't look at porn.

Just glad that i'm not alone in this either. There is no other place, it seems, where guys can go to deal with this and actually talk about this.

This place actually is giving me hope.

Glad you are here.

 

[dennisshipman]

I appreciate all the support. It's gotten tough but I've always been extremely disciplined. I cannot believe how easy it was to fall victim to this addiction. I never used to look at porn. It is weird. Next thing I know I am masturbating to the weirdest s...  I feel guilty but not ashamed, though. I think if I can eventually regain a normal sex life with normal ejaculation and recovery, my quality of life would increase dramatically. 

 

[Dharmabum]

Hey Dennis,

I'm sure most of us wonder how we wound up "here" in terms of our addiction.  It's a tad insidious because it sorta creeps up on you and when you finally look around at where you ended up, versus the more seemingly innocent place you may have started with the PMO behavior, we wonder how it spiraled.  It's as slow as quicksand.

But, alas, it's less about kicking ourselves for getting here and more about uplifting ourselves so we can get back out.  The people on this forum can help.  Reach out.  Post often about your struggles and progress.  We'll do all we can to make you feel like you're not alone on your journey.

You can do this.  Some of the guys here are living proof. 

 

[dennisshipman]

I feel ya. I has gotten tough, but I've been hanging in there.