Hi all. Second day on this site, and I'm feeling hopeful, I'm enjoying having a community to connect to and a blog to write. I've committed to seven days without p or m first of all. Those little toolbars that measure the days are a genius way of keeping motiviation going I think!
Before Thursday, I have looked at p every day (pretty much) for the last 6 weeks for minimum 3 hrs. Thought it was best to set an achievable goal where I could feel good with some success pretty quickly. Ultimately I think I would like to be celibate till my 40th Birthday in June. I came out of a relationship last year in a way that was heart-breaking and just feel that a bit of space with both any kind of sexual activity and also relationships is a good idea. Let things settle down. Would also be really good to be clear of P for 6 months. Apart from a few years in my 20s I've been using it compulsively from my early teens till now.
Friday was really difficult and I did look at P for 15 mins. My head felt really fuzzy, I felt depressed and hopeless and incapable of any kind of concentration. I had dreams I kept on waking up from - a mixture of anxiety dreams and sexual fantasy dreams. Spending hours surfing this site was the only thing that kept me away from porn most of the day. This morning I still felt anxious but I used some online resources of hypnosis and guided imagery, which seemed to help. I don't think they're the complete answer - but they both seem to implant the message somewhere in my brain that porn was my past and I can be free of it. It feels a little easier to resist the urges (which are still pretty intense today). Still I have abit more energy and focus - and feel emotionally lighter than yesterday. Oh, a bt of exerise helped too.
In case your interested this is the hypnosis link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qG58o7yeAZU
and the guided imagery one:
http://drmiller.com/change-habits-addictions-behaviors-free-meditation/
Good luck on your own journey, and thanks for keeping me company on mine. It means alot to know I'm not alone.
Will.
Before Thursday, I have looked at p every day (pretty much) for the last 6 weeks for minimum 3 hrs. Thought it was best to set an achievable goal where I could feel good with some success pretty quickly. Ultimately I think I would like to be celibate till my 40th Birthday in June. I came out of a relationship last year in a way that was heart-breaking and just feel that a bit of space with both any kind of sexual activity and also relationships is a good idea. Let things settle down. Would also be really good to be clear of P for 6 months. Apart from a few years in my 20s I've been using it compulsively from my early teens till now.
Friday was really difficult and I did look at P for 15 mins. My head felt really fuzzy, I felt depressed and hopeless and incapable of any kind of concentration. I had dreams I kept on waking up from - a mixture of anxiety dreams and sexual fantasy dreams. Spending hours surfing this site was the only thing that kept me away from porn most of the day. This morning I still felt anxious but I used some online resources of hypnosis and guided imagery, which seemed to help. I don't think they're the complete answer - but they both seem to implant the message somewhere in my brain that porn was my past and I can be free of it. It feels a little easier to resist the urges (which are still pretty intense today). Still I have abit more energy and focus - and feel emotionally lighter than yesterday. Oh, a bt of exerise helped too.
In case your interested this is the hypnosis link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qG58o7yeAZU
and the guided imagery one:
http://drmiller.com/change-habits-addictions-behaviors-free-meditation/
Good luck on your own journey, and thanks for keeping me company on mine. It means alot to know I'm not alone.
Will.