Hello to the PIED victims out there, I am a 20 year old that started to MO around 10 and progressed with my access to technology to hardcore PMO by 12. The frequency which I would PMO increased during high school but has tapered off in the past few years do to different reasons. My taste never really changed much other than current preference. I never watched Fetish videos or anything too hardcore. I think cuckolding was about as "hardcore" as I got if there is a ranking but who knows. I did not mean to rant but I feel that it was comforting to hear stories that resembled mine so I wanted to provide enough detail to offer that same feeling to others that discover this.
Now for my questions and concurs. I am now 3 days no MO, PMO. Its Not long but I stopped as soon as I saw this website. This started when I started to feel pretty anxious about two weeks ago and did not know why. I first thought it was because I was worried about my Long distance relationship but then I spoke with my girlfriend and cleared it up. The next morning I still felt anxious and realized I might have been worried about my ED last time I saw her. The time before when I was with her, We were able to have sex, like most times we see each other, but it was hard for me to become erect and I had to just focus on instead of her to cum. That was a big sign that concerned me because I truly love her and am extremely attracted to her. Since then (about a month ago) i stopped watching as much P. Just because I have gone through this before (about two years ago) and stopping porn for a few weeks and it helped. That was my first time rebooting and it worked but it did not last for some stupid reason. IDK why I started again. Maybe I thought I could just go slow. Anyway, this time my PIED i think is worse. I noticed for the past two weeks (since I started really tapering off) I noticed I felt crummy and did not know why. Then about a week ago I noticed I was not falling asleep or waking with erections, something that used to always happen. I guess my MW has been getting softer for years but I thought it was just getting older and able to have more sex that resulted in that. Now, after a week of no erections at all, other than P once to test my ability, I am worried.
Now for my specific worries and questions that everyone has,
Is it possible that slowly tapering off was a slow start to my reboot and thats why I felt the flatline so fast? I also felt a pick up in mood today and am wondering if that is a light towards the end of the flatline?
Did anyone else feel lethargic and cold at times during the beginning?
My penis feels smaller and cold, lifeless like, when did this go away for others and was it an indication of PIED coming to an end? I think i got a little closer to my normal size today, another possibility of the end of a flatline? Still no real sex drive
I never had a wet dream in my life and am wondering if that was because all the MOed as a kid too much or just because some people don't have them?
Final concern, I have not had a desire to watch porn at all. I noticed a lot of people saying that exact thing later on in their reboot but I genuinely do not feel that I was as much of a porn addict as a bored teen that just found a way to amuse himself without realizing how much damage I was causing. I have had sex with a dozen girls in my life and still imagine myself doing it even when I did PMO, but my overall question is that do you think that this could indicate a quicker reboot? I have PIED but not an addiction problem to porn. I hope someone can provide some answers or similar experience. Thank you.
Now for my questions and concurs. I am now 3 days no MO, PMO. Its Not long but I stopped as soon as I saw this website. This started when I started to feel pretty anxious about two weeks ago and did not know why. I first thought it was because I was worried about my Long distance relationship but then I spoke with my girlfriend and cleared it up. The next morning I still felt anxious and realized I might have been worried about my ED last time I saw her. The time before when I was with her, We were able to have sex, like most times we see each other, but it was hard for me to become erect and I had to just focus on instead of her to cum. That was a big sign that concerned me because I truly love her and am extremely attracted to her. Since then (about a month ago) i stopped watching as much P. Just because I have gone through this before (about two years ago) and stopping porn for a few weeks and it helped. That was my first time rebooting and it worked but it did not last for some stupid reason. IDK why I started again. Maybe I thought I could just go slow. Anyway, this time my PIED i think is worse. I noticed for the past two weeks (since I started really tapering off) I noticed I felt crummy and did not know why. Then about a week ago I noticed I was not falling asleep or waking with erections, something that used to always happen. I guess my MW has been getting softer for years but I thought it was just getting older and able to have more sex that resulted in that. Now, after a week of no erections at all, other than P once to test my ability, I am worried.
Now for my specific worries and questions that everyone has,
Is it possible that slowly tapering off was a slow start to my reboot and thats why I felt the flatline so fast? I also felt a pick up in mood today and am wondering if that is a light towards the end of the flatline?
Did anyone else feel lethargic and cold at times during the beginning?
My penis feels smaller and cold, lifeless like, when did this go away for others and was it an indication of PIED coming to an end? I think i got a little closer to my normal size today, another possibility of the end of a flatline? Still no real sex drive
I never had a wet dream in my life and am wondering if that was because all the MOed as a kid too much or just because some people don't have them?
Final concern, I have not had a desire to watch porn at all. I noticed a lot of people saying that exact thing later on in their reboot but I genuinely do not feel that I was as much of a porn addict as a bored teen that just found a way to amuse himself without realizing how much damage I was causing. I have had sex with a dozen girls in my life and still imagine myself doing it even when I did PMO, but my overall question is that do you think that this could indicate a quicker reboot? I have PIED but not an addiction problem to porn. I hope someone can provide some answers or similar experience. Thank you.
