Hey guys,
I was wondering if there are any gay guys on this site.
I recently (few months) started to experience ED. This was a complete shock and a serious blow to my self esteem.
I have a very good and calm relationship with a guy 11 years younger than me.
I started searching the web and (luckily!) found mybrainonporn through someone's blog.
My story fitted perfectly... I've been binging on porn for years now, and the worst part is... this clearly makes my impulse controll much weaker!
I'm chatting with guys online, swap pictures and vids, jack off on cam. All this is in the root of my problem (even more so than porn itself, though I started from porn).
All this escalated in various ways until during one of there weekend biges, I've found myself drunk in another guy's apartment, ready to fool around...
Luckily nothing happened in the end.
The day after was hell and all this made me want to do something about it.
My thoughts and energy, ultimately seems to revolve around sex. I want more and more. I was thinking about opening the relationship or inviting other guys to our bedroom.
But all this seems now to be a dead end. This is like a horizon - you can never reach it, no matter how far you'd go...
I need to find balance. Bad...
I'm trying to quit from Jan 1st. It started awesome - I got to three weeks, no problem. But then... This is my 3rd or 4th attempt. I don't even rememeber. I have this counter on my iPhone I keep reseting to 90 days... I never thought this will be so tough.
I live in Poland, where being a gay teen in the 90' wasn't exactly a walk in the park. This crippled me in many was. Therefore I try not to be to hard on myself but also I feel I should stop making excuses.
Today the counter reads "87".
I've tried nofap.com and it was a disaster. Maybe I was doing something wrong technically with my posts, but everybody seemed not to care... even when I posted: "I think I'm about to binge."
Maybe an accountability partner would be helpful?
All this is torture :/
Thanks for reading.
And thanks Gabe!
I was wondering if there are any gay guys on this site.
I recently (few months) started to experience ED. This was a complete shock and a serious blow to my self esteem.
I have a very good and calm relationship with a guy 11 years younger than me.
I started searching the web and (luckily!) found mybrainonporn through someone's blog.
My story fitted perfectly... I've been binging on porn for years now, and the worst part is... this clearly makes my impulse controll much weaker!
I'm chatting with guys online, swap pictures and vids, jack off on cam. All this is in the root of my problem (even more so than porn itself, though I started from porn).
All this escalated in various ways until during one of there weekend biges, I've found myself drunk in another guy's apartment, ready to fool around...
Luckily nothing happened in the end.
The day after was hell and all this made me want to do something about it.
My thoughts and energy, ultimately seems to revolve around sex. I want more and more. I was thinking about opening the relationship or inviting other guys to our bedroom.
But all this seems now to be a dead end. This is like a horizon - you can never reach it, no matter how far you'd go...
I need to find balance. Bad...
I'm trying to quit from Jan 1st. It started awesome - I got to three weeks, no problem. But then... This is my 3rd or 4th attempt. I don't even rememeber. I have this counter on my iPhone I keep reseting to 90 days... I never thought this will be so tough.
I live in Poland, where being a gay teen in the 90' wasn't exactly a walk in the park. This crippled me in many was. Therefore I try not to be to hard on myself but also I feel I should stop making excuses.
Today the counter reads "87".
I've tried nofap.com and it was a disaster. Maybe I was doing something wrong technically with my posts, but everybody seemed not to care... even when I posted: "I think I'm about to binge."
Maybe an accountability partner would be helpful?
All this is torture :/
Thanks for reading.
And thanks Gabe!