Im on my own here. As I said in my other opening post Ive been addicted for 15 years since I was a teenager myself, Ive been though a lot of head trips with this stuff. Im Manic Depressive so its been easy to escape into bad habits and I consider this one to be the worst. Its also the one pretty much nobody knows about. I haven't really told anyone until recently and that was just mentioning it sort of off hand to my parents and even my doctor. I have never told my wife. My doctor and parents seems to feel its a good thing to be doing but dont have any real understanding about how hard it is. They dont ask about my progress and dont think about it. But its somewhat understandable I dont think most people know just how bad this thing is. There is really no press around it and the older generation doesnt understand it becasue it was never around like this in there day. I cant tell my wife she is far to sensitive and is already constantly insecure about herself and her looks without me saying I have a problem looking at other naked women. To a degree the type of porn I was into in related to a type of OCDI had in the past and still have a little now. Its like having intrusive thoughts, when I was a kid I would get thoughts in my head that would scare me and I would hate them and run around all day doing and thinking things to get rid of them. I found out later that this is a form of OCD that is common with bipolar. These are not things I want or would ever do but they pop into my head and disturb me and scare me. I know better know but in the day I would spend hours crying and screaming and doing whatever I could to get them to stop. I guess in all this mess the type of porn I watched related to this. Its not anything like child porn but its just as a disturbing subject to me. The point is even when I got help for the OCD I never never told ANYONE what the content of these thoughts were even when I got help, I just said how it was happening. So I got good at keeping things to myself. I hid my porn addiction the same way I never told anyone. I dont tend to trust people with my head anyway. So aside from coming on here and talking to you guys nobody knows that im doing any of this.....makes it even harder. Anyone else in this type of situation?