Went 96 days no PMO then relapsed 3 times

[DDP]

So I want to start again. I don't see it as erased progress. I started my reboot November 4th 2013. I had relapses until December 31. I went from then until January 23 PMO free (23 days) then relapsed and then January 26th until may 2nd I relapsed again (96 days) during that time I peeked at porn twice and MOed in the shower once every 7-10 days. I started feeling "withdrawal" symptoms for two months (Although I think some of it was brought on by me worrying about my health and I had a cousin who was dying if cancer and I was scared it would happen to me to) so since the 96 days steak I went 12 days after that then relapsed to porn. Then PMOed two days in a row so 3 times within 14 days. Like I said I don't think I erased 96 days plus 23 days plus the other streaks I had (6,7 8, 11) but I still want to get on track and make sure it doesn't turn into a binge. So I came to this site for a fresh start.... I was a member at your brain rebalanced but I wanted to start a new one here.... So here I am. I just need to stay focused and get back on track... I want to quit porn not for ED but because I'm just tired of porn and I want to leave it in the past.

 

[tschulien]

Hi and welcome
You've proved that you can go with out porn for 3 months which means your brain or your body is fine without using porn. If you want to stop watching porn you can do it, you just need to know what your goals are and what you can look forward to.
Good luck!

 

[miomio]

(...) during that time I peeked at porn twice and MOed in the shower once every 7-10 days.
I went 12 days after that then relapsed to porn. Then PMOed two days in a row so 3 times within 14 days.

So, was there a reason why you returned to porn? What made you peek?

 

[DDP]

I was depressed after my cousin died and I couldn't sleep that night so I just stayed up then PMOed

 

[DDP]

My dick gets hard when talking to chicks (in person and texts) and I won't even be thinking sexual

 

[DDP]

In the last 115 days I have PMOed 4 times. One on the 26th of January then 96 days in a row clean. Then a PMO. Then 12 days clean. Then PMO two days in a row. Now 6 days clean. That's amazing when I look back a year ago when I would PMO 5 times  in a 6-7 day period