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MrMan89
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Hey guys
After lurking on this forum for some time and reading a variety of accounts of your struggles with porn and masturbation and being able to relate to almost all of them iv'e decided to join the bandwagon and join the forum.
First a little background info about my experience with porn
It all started back when i was 15 and my household finally got hooked up to the internet with a 56k dial up connection (back in 2004 that was the fastest internet i could get where i live) anyways being a red blooded teenage guy i made good use of the internet by downloading naked pictures of women and using P2P software like kazaa to download short clips, however at that time porn wasn't having much of an effect on me as the amount i could consume was limited.
Later in 2005 we got broadband and naturally my porn use increased exponentially i would be downloading several full porn movies a week and fapping no less than twice a day and while i didn't notice at the time porn was affecting me in subtle ways the main one being that my motivation to socialize and meet girls was slightly diminishing but i put that down to being stressed out from college.
The point where things went downhill very quickly was when i discovered video streaming porn sites that had thousands of videos on and endless novelty, once i had started using those sites my social anxiety increased, i got depressed, my libido towards real girls pretty much vanished, couldn't get a boner without porn, i stopped socializing outside of college and just spent most of my time in my room fapping to porn and playing video games and this went on for several years until at the age of 22 in a moment of clarity during the worst episode of depression in my life i realized that all of the negative things that were going on with me probably had their roots in the habits that i thought gave me pleasure i'e porn, video games, junk food etc so since then i have tried quitting porn and masturbation many times with limited success, the longest i have managed without doing either was 3 months during a relationship but once that ended i fell back into bad habits.
So that's the story so far, i'm 25 now and i know that the decisions that i make while i am young will echo throughout my life so i'm determined to make the right decision now to eliminate porn from my life for good however i know it wont be easy as previous attempts have taught me so this time instead of making a lofty goal of going 30 days, 90 days, 1 year without porn and masturbation i am going to start with small goals and build on them until they become bigger and bigger as each time iv'e started with a lofty goal iv'e always been met with failure.
Sooo here goes nothing!!
After lurking on this forum for some time and reading a variety of accounts of your struggles with porn and masturbation and being able to relate to almost all of them iv'e decided to join the bandwagon and join the forum.
First a little background info about my experience with porn
It all started back when i was 15 and my household finally got hooked up to the internet with a 56k dial up connection (back in 2004 that was the fastest internet i could get where i live) anyways being a red blooded teenage guy i made good use of the internet by downloading naked pictures of women and using P2P software like kazaa to download short clips, however at that time porn wasn't having much of an effect on me as the amount i could consume was limited.
Later in 2005 we got broadband and naturally my porn use increased exponentially i would be downloading several full porn movies a week and fapping no less than twice a day and while i didn't notice at the time porn was affecting me in subtle ways the main one being that my motivation to socialize and meet girls was slightly diminishing but i put that down to being stressed out from college.
The point where things went downhill very quickly was when i discovered video streaming porn sites that had thousands of videos on and endless novelty, once i had started using those sites my social anxiety increased, i got depressed, my libido towards real girls pretty much vanished, couldn't get a boner without porn, i stopped socializing outside of college and just spent most of my time in my room fapping to porn and playing video games and this went on for several years until at the age of 22 in a moment of clarity during the worst episode of depression in my life i realized that all of the negative things that were going on with me probably had their roots in the habits that i thought gave me pleasure i'e porn, video games, junk food etc so since then i have tried quitting porn and masturbation many times with limited success, the longest i have managed without doing either was 3 months during a relationship but once that ended i fell back into bad habits.
So that's the story so far, i'm 25 now and i know that the decisions that i make while i am young will echo throughout my life so i'm determined to make the right decision now to eliminate porn from my life for good however i know it wont be easy as previous attempts have taught me so this time instead of making a lofty goal of going 30 days, 90 days, 1 year without porn and masturbation i am going to start with small goals and build on them until they become bigger and bigger as each time iv'e started with a lofty goal iv'e always been met with failure.
Sooo here goes nothing!!