This is the third time im trying no PMO after failing at a 20 day streak
In my early days of porn addiction when i was 16,for the first time ever I had an intimate experience with an average looking girl.
We still are in contact together but never done anything after that day.
Although I dont like her,I am viewing her as only an object ,seriously I dont intend to do that,I did really feel bad after thinking about it.
I just dont want to get out of that state of mind of objectifying this girl
Even today whenever i meet my ex I have a sort of anticipation that something is gonna happen for sure and then nothing happens.This feeling destroys my ability to even listen what a girl is talking to me while being alone.
And I really dont mind having moments with a girl without thinking anything related to sex
And this was never bothering me when i was masturbating!I could get girls more easily since I wouldnt be sexually frustrated.
I have lost all my dignity and self worth and people have started calling me a weirdo now and then
I cannot concentrate on anything.
I am somehow making it till 20 days but failing after then.
How to make it go longer??I seriously want to quit it forever!
And I completely start hating myself when I think about girls that way when I am with them!As a result I have started to avoid meeting any girl .
My entire youth is in front me and I am just wasting it lying all day feeling lethargic and bored and ending up masturbating !
I am feeling very alone!
If i dont Masturbate theres just one girl in my mind which i have mentioned at first whom i think is the easiest to get but I really dont like her.
And now even she has started to talk uninterestingly as she finds me very boring and tells that I dont talk much whenever I meet her!So she avoids meeting me now.
Please Need your Help!
In my early days of porn addiction when i was 16,for the first time ever I had an intimate experience with an average looking girl.
We still are in contact together but never done anything after that day.
Although I dont like her,I am viewing her as only an object ,seriously I dont intend to do that,I did really feel bad after thinking about it.
I just dont want to get out of that state of mind of objectifying this girl
Even today whenever i meet my ex I have a sort of anticipation that something is gonna happen for sure and then nothing happens.This feeling destroys my ability to even listen what a girl is talking to me while being alone.
And I really dont mind having moments with a girl without thinking anything related to sex
And this was never bothering me when i was masturbating!I could get girls more easily since I wouldnt be sexually frustrated.
I have lost all my dignity and self worth and people have started calling me a weirdo now and then
I cannot concentrate on anything.
I am somehow making it till 20 days but failing after then.
How to make it go longer??I seriously want to quit it forever!
And I completely start hating myself when I think about girls that way when I am with them!As a result I have started to avoid meeting any girl .
My entire youth is in front me and I am just wasting it lying all day feeling lethargic and bored and ending up masturbating !
I am feeling very alone!
If i dont Masturbate theres just one girl in my mind which i have mentioned at first whom i think is the easiest to get but I really dont like her.
And now even she has started to talk uninterestingly as she finds me very boring and tells that I dont talk much whenever I meet her!So she avoids meeting me now.
Please Need your Help!
