SomeGuyADP
Member
Hi everyone.
About me:
I am a 43 year old male, who just landed on this website. In life, I am a succesful person working in technology. I am open to sharing more if it helps in any way.
About my problem:
But ... I have a porn addicition. I feel miserable. I have had the porn addiction for years, probably progressing the last 10 years or so, even though I have been masturbating a lot since my teens. I am in a great relationship with a girl for 5 years now. We recently married, and we are platonically very happy. But I find myself masturbating daily to soft porn / semi-nude images (it can be anything, like a search for latina girls on google images, or hot girls on pinterest). I also do this at work (in the restroom). When I'm out amongst people, I am also constantly noticing and fantasizing about ANY remotely hot girl that I see anywhere.
I can't really put words to why I still continue, I even have the thoughts on my way to the restrooms, during and after, but I can just see that it goes on happening every day. Some times I'll just reason like this: "Dammit, I'll go masturbate, to get it over with, to get the thoughts out of my head".
Even on sites like instagram I find myself attracted to duckface girls on the Popular page. And I'm 43 and married! I'm ashamed of myself. I feel I can't stop, and I feel my case is difficult, because just about any image or remotely hot girl in the street kicks off my desire to masturbate.
Progress so far
Almost none. I have managed to stay 99,9% off video sites like youporn. But I don't call that progress; I have replaced it with soft porn, and find it very hard to resist, perhaps even more, because pictures of bikini girls / hot girls etc are almost everywhere in printed and digital media.
What now?
I have set up a repeating tasks to read up on porn addiction daily. That's what I can say about today. And I have come to this website to sign up.
Any help appreciated. I am looking for "buddies", a counseling word, or whatever you can suggest that I need. In return, I give you sincere answers, friendship and I promise to help in return by whatever you can suggest. And I promise to try.
Thanks for listening.
PS. I would like to add that I am a newborn christian (2 years ago), and find that the addiction makes my walk with God even more difficult. I feel this is seriously keeping me from my destiny, both in life and beyond. I tried verses on temptation, but it has not been enough to kick off a recovery. Maybe God brought me here, who knows.
About me:
I am a 43 year old male, who just landed on this website. In life, I am a succesful person working in technology. I am open to sharing more if it helps in any way.
About my problem:
But ... I have a porn addicition. I feel miserable. I have had the porn addiction for years, probably progressing the last 10 years or so, even though I have been masturbating a lot since my teens. I am in a great relationship with a girl for 5 years now. We recently married, and we are platonically very happy. But I find myself masturbating daily to soft porn / semi-nude images (it can be anything, like a search for latina girls on google images, or hot girls on pinterest). I also do this at work (in the restroom). When I'm out amongst people, I am also constantly noticing and fantasizing about ANY remotely hot girl that I see anywhere.
I can't really put words to why I still continue, I even have the thoughts on my way to the restrooms, during and after, but I can just see that it goes on happening every day. Some times I'll just reason like this: "Dammit, I'll go masturbate, to get it over with, to get the thoughts out of my head".
Even on sites like instagram I find myself attracted to duckface girls on the Popular page. And I'm 43 and married! I'm ashamed of myself. I feel I can't stop, and I feel my case is difficult, because just about any image or remotely hot girl in the street kicks off my desire to masturbate.
Progress so far
Almost none. I have managed to stay 99,9% off video sites like youporn. But I don't call that progress; I have replaced it with soft porn, and find it very hard to resist, perhaps even more, because pictures of bikini girls / hot girls etc are almost everywhere in printed and digital media.
What now?
I have set up a repeating tasks to read up on porn addiction daily. That's what I can say about today. And I have come to this website to sign up.
Any help appreciated. I am looking for "buddies", a counseling word, or whatever you can suggest that I need. In return, I give you sincere answers, friendship and I promise to help in return by whatever you can suggest. And I promise to try.
Thanks for listening.
PS. I would like to add that I am a newborn christian (2 years ago), and find that the addiction makes my walk with God even more difficult. I feel this is seriously keeping me from my destiny, both in life and beyond. I tried verses on temptation, but it has not been enough to kick off a recovery. Maybe God brought me here, who knows.