Hey guys!
Some of you may know me from YBR, i have a journal there although i haven't been writing there for a long time. One of my strategies for rebooting is not to concentrate too much on it so i just occasionally drop by to read what is going on.
Here is a link to my journal if anyone wants to read it:
http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=5363.50
To be short, i have been rebooting for over 2 years now. Why so long? Because i had so many relapses. I seriously cannot count how many times i have relapsed. But i am very happy to report that so far i have been clean for 269 days! And before that, i had a 161 day streak, but i had a massive relapse and i had to start over again. Before that, i also had a very good streak that also ended in relapsing.
The secret to my success? Well...i am a huge basketball fans so i have to quote Michael Jordan: "I have failed over and over in my life. And that is why i succeed." To be honest, even though i relapsed so many times, every no PMO streak was a step forward in it's own way but i never had the determination to break free from it. Then i met my GF(now ex-gf) and she turned me around. She gave me the motivation to succeed. And after that, i managed to go on a huge run that ended in a slip-up one night with me drunk going through tv channels and accidentely turning on porn. Yikes. But since then i rebounded and have held strong. I found motivation within me. I remembered what i was when i was watching porn - a loser who will never find happiness in his life and i tole myself i don't want to be that loser. I want to dominate life and have shitloads of fun while i can and not to be a slave of an addiction. And i have to say, i am really proud of myself.
So, how is it now? Well, my erections are great, concentration has improved, my grades are up, self-confidence is up. The only thing that is still missing is libido and here is why - when i was with my gf i had regular sex but those orgasms maybe held my libido back from exploding. When we broke up, i promised to myself not to orgasm and let my libido bounce back fully and it was good while it lasted but then i started mastrubating again. It was really great, but 2 nights ago i mastrubated to some memories of sex and that was a bad idea. After that i felt like i've relapsed a bit. So now, i have decided to abandon mastrubation until my libido is fully present. I really belive that if i abstain from mastrubation for a month i could be "back to normal" but we will see. But as i said, apart from my libido, everything is great and i can perform sexually. No PMO has really saved my ass.
So if you have any questions i am happy to help. I hope my story can be an inspiration to all you guys who are struggling to get a successful no PMO streak going. Stay strong!
Some of you may know me from YBR, i have a journal there although i haven't been writing there for a long time. One of my strategies for rebooting is not to concentrate too much on it so i just occasionally drop by to read what is going on.
Here is a link to my journal if anyone wants to read it:
http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=5363.50
To be short, i have been rebooting for over 2 years now. Why so long? Because i had so many relapses. I seriously cannot count how many times i have relapsed. But i am very happy to report that so far i have been clean for 269 days! And before that, i had a 161 day streak, but i had a massive relapse and i had to start over again. Before that, i also had a very good streak that also ended in relapsing.
The secret to my success? Well...i am a huge basketball fans so i have to quote Michael Jordan: "I have failed over and over in my life. And that is why i succeed." To be honest, even though i relapsed so many times, every no PMO streak was a step forward in it's own way but i never had the determination to break free from it. Then i met my GF(now ex-gf) and she turned me around. She gave me the motivation to succeed. And after that, i managed to go on a huge run that ended in a slip-up one night with me drunk going through tv channels and accidentely turning on porn. Yikes. But since then i rebounded and have held strong. I found motivation within me. I remembered what i was when i was watching porn - a loser who will never find happiness in his life and i tole myself i don't want to be that loser. I want to dominate life and have shitloads of fun while i can and not to be a slave of an addiction. And i have to say, i am really proud of myself.
So, how is it now? Well, my erections are great, concentration has improved, my grades are up, self-confidence is up. The only thing that is still missing is libido and here is why - when i was with my gf i had regular sex but those orgasms maybe held my libido back from exploding. When we broke up, i promised to myself not to orgasm and let my libido bounce back fully and it was good while it lasted but then i started mastrubating again. It was really great, but 2 nights ago i mastrubated to some memories of sex and that was a bad idea. After that i felt like i've relapsed a bit. So now, i have decided to abandon mastrubation until my libido is fully present. I really belive that if i abstain from mastrubation for a month i could be "back to normal" but we will see. But as i said, apart from my libido, everything is great and i can perform sexually. No PMO has really saved my ass.
So if you have any questions i am happy to help. I hope my story can be an inspiration to all you guys who are struggling to get a successful no PMO streak going. Stay strong!
