Reboot part II

[thenyteowl]

Today I am thankful for the green smoothie that I am eating. It tastes a bit tart, but I still know it's good for me. Leafy greens is something I sorely need in my diet. They are nutrient dense and just all around good for you.

I can't believe I made 31 days. Wow. Time just flew. I am almost at a breaking point. A big difference between this time around and the last time I challenged myself is that I had a girlfriend last time, and my sexual needs were met. This time I am alone. It's much harder since there is no sexual outlet...no pun intended. I still did good though. Not watching porn is fairly easy. Shit, many of the tv shows and movies are somewhat like porn. It's the no masturbation part that's getting to me, that lack of sexual release.

 

[thenyteowl]

Last week, and the week before I had a relapse. The good news is that I don't feel shamed about it. I realize that this time around I am not having any sexual contact and that's a bit harder than when you have a girlfriend. So be it. The other good news, for me anyway, is that I did not look at porn. I think watching porn is worse. What you see is what you believe.

I don't really want to rest my counter. Instead I'd like to count how many times I do PMO within a 90 day period. For some reason I feel that it's healthier to think about it that way. No worries. I did last for 35 days and that's is the longest since I was a teenager. 35 days with PMO whatsoever. That's an achievement in itself. 

 

[OldHornyGuy]

You are absolutely right to focus on the PMO free time and not on the short relapses.  Although I am with a SO right now, I am in the middle of my longest non-PM time since, well pretty much ever.  Hardcore Mode is very tough, and 35 days is a tremendous accomplishment.  Hang in there and make it 60 next time!  And then keep going!

Peace and Stay Strong!