Morning everyone..I haven't been posting because I feel that I am not taking this seriously and don't want to have "true believers and recoverers" from this addiction giving me words of encouragement and I am not taking it with the intent on really listening and getting better.I just don't know what to do.I can't get past 2 weeks and just relapse after relapse.I so desperately want to get this under control,even to the point of getting rid of my computer all together,but unfortunately need it for my work.I can't keep living my life like this,and having no intimacy with such a wonderful loving wife and mother as my wife is.It's almost like I live separately from my wife and children..and for what??? A bunch of dirtball pornstars who are lowest form out there...but ultimately I seem to be lower on the totem pole then them for soliciting their filth.I just can't seem to outline a plan of attack for coping and recovering..it's so frustrating.I know everyone is different in recovery,but at some point will it get better after several weeks or months? That's my question.I hate this life of no intimacy..I hate it.I feel like I am robbing my wife of what she deserves,instead just being selfish and catering to myself..which sucks too.Can anyone give me somewhat of map out plan of what I should do to cope with this truly awful urges to MO/PMO? Thanks in advance,and be well everyone.
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