New to the Struggle!!

[wetlook]

Have had a very bleak looking April so far, seeking counselling and have had visits to my physician as well. I'm 42 turning 43 and although not addicted to porn, my condition closely mimics the symptoms of porn addiction, and my ED is sort of a parallel story to any of you. my condition is sexual fetishes,I would edge for hours and masturbate to images on the internet of women in satin clothing, rainwear, and wetlook clothing. I'm completely heterosexual but this is what aroused me and still does. My GF knows about it and we both know it has affected me and my performance in bed. so ive stopped MOing and am also looking to recover. Still in a bit of a flatline state so far and am seeing a counselor tonite for the 2nd time. Iveshared my fantasies with my GF and she has even role played in the clothing but it  made me feel awkward some of the time. Alone masturbating was always a "safety zone."However sometimes our fetish sex  was ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC!!but I"d prematurely ejaculate. All kinds of sexual problems in the last year. Ive taken Cialis with mixed results, our sex is not involving any fetish activity right now,  I would just be happy to get it up, keep it up, and satisfy the poor girl!!I'm just over a week in a re_boot and trying to build confidence and keep a positive outlook.

 

[eddie20850]

Hi new here also.  Thanks for writing of your struggle, it helps me learn that it's ok to share about what I'm going thru.  My struggle is a bit different, and I am single, and bi.  So for me, I've gotten to the point of inability to climax with a partner.  Now I see today for the first time(joined this forum/site about an hour ago) this concept of men having this issue due to porn being what is a main focus of masturbation, as it is for me.  I have issues that I wish to share only with a counselor or mentor so i won't go much further, but again just thanks for your sharing.  I'm encouraged.
Eddie