joepanic
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Been coming here for close to 4 years had some successes and some failures. Tons of soul searching and educating myself. Now it comes down to why can I not find that final success? I'm sure this will not be popular but i am at the point of laying the blame at my wife's feet But to be honest I have been able to follow the patterns for several years. It is even somewhat documented in my 3 1/2 year long journal. I live in chaos always projects that need to be completed even when i ask we take no new ones on. House a total cluttered mess because of it. I have no time to follow my hobbies and interests(although she seems to have time for hers. I'm at my wits end. The thought of leaving her has actually popped into my mind unless at some point we can finally get out from behind the 8 ball. Only things that keep me here these days are I really do love her and I love our kids and don't want to break up our family. The stress I feel is unbelievable and sorry partners but porn relieves that stress. I have spoken to her time and time again regarding how I feel and offered up ideas but they fall on deaf ears as they may take away the control she feels she needs to live life So I guess life goes on