I have failed over and over again. My wife is finally through and is planning on divorcing me. I couldn't feel more stupid and ashamed. I have hit rock bottom and I must change now in order to save the shred of possibility that there is for my marriage. I can be that change. I will throw...
Checking in again for the goals last week:
GOALS
MON
TUE
WED
THUR
FRI
SAT
SUN
SUCCESS RATE
Eat a home cooked meal
1
1
1
1
1
1
0
86%
Read before bed
1
1
1
1
1
0
0
71%
Meditate 10 min
1
1
0
0
0
0
0
29%
Exercise 30 min
1
1
1
1
1
1
1
100%
Study 15 min
1
1
0
0
0
0
0
29%
I did really...
Here are my weekly goals and success rate for the week:
GOALS
MON
TUE
WED
THUR
FRI
SAT
SUN
SUCCESS RATE
Eat a home cooked meal
1
0
1
1
1
0
1
71%
Read before bed
1
1
1
1
1
1
1
100%
Meditate 10 min
0
0
0
0
1
0
0
14%
Exercise 30 min
1
1
1
1
1
0
0
71%
Study 15 min
0
0
0
0
1
1
0
29%
I...
Thanks for the constant dedication Phineas! It is helping to come back to the site after some time away to read that others can struggle but remain fastidious to the cause. I need to remind myself that this is a place for honesty and healing not judgement for my mistakes.
I think it's funny that the tag next to my name says "active member". I definitely haven't been active for the last few weeks and I am currently on the right track again as of a few days ago. I remember when I was first starting out that I wanted to be that person that had the active member tag...
Here is my progress for the week so far withy goals:
Exercise 30 min - 4/4
Home made meal - 3/4
Read before bed - 3/4
Meditate 10 min - 0/4
Study 15 min - 0/4
I haven't been meditating and I'm thinking of changing this to some sort of wellness practice each day. I also haven't been studying...
It's been awhile since I've been on the site. It's also been awhile since I've had success away from PMO. I have been on a terrible binge both porn and health wise. I'm exercising more but my diet has been terrible. I think that I eat to distract my self from feeling bad about using.
Anyway...
Sorry for the drama on the earlier post; I had some shit to work through. I have been inspired by Empty Room's goal tables and decided to copy his idea and recreate my own. This is my own version:
GOALS
MON
TUE
WED
THUR
FRI
SAT
SUN
TOTALS
Eat a home cooked meal
0%
Read before...
I have had ups and downs through this process but I don't know really what to attribute success to because I'm not sure I have actually achieved it. Sometimes I feel like a fucking fake trying to encourage people on this site. It helps to speak to people and I think I can sometimes help them but...
I have found that sex with my wife is a much better alternative to masturbation or porn. After you go about a week or two without either and you turn to her to meet your sexual needs it feels much better. Some people have mentioned before that after sex you can have an increased surge or desire...
The past few days I have been able to relax more and be intimate with my wife. We are trying again for a baby, so lots of sex every day. Sex seems like such a mental game right now. I felt before like I wasn't approaching my wife for sex because I wasn't sure of my abilities and didn't want to...