Day 2
Seems that i had to talk a lot of stuff with someone. Felt a lot better after that. Seems that i am in a stuck point with my self-development. Trying to figure out new strats. New approach: instead of saying don't do it i'll say go for it if you want. Seems to take off the pressure of...
Day 0
It's been a while since last wrote here. Had an awesome start in june, but in the last 2 months i've only been able to reach 4 days. Today i relapsed 5 times. I think i have to be back to basics.
(C) This was because of a video I saw that reminded me how important is to get things on a balance and I've been putting too much weight in one aspect of my life wich caused constant relapses. Also I've decided to improve my spiritual part. I've had a hard time with that, but now I get that is...
Has been a while since i wrote here. Currently I'm on my way to day 4. The last month was quite unestable: I got absorbed by college. Last week i take notice that giving too much of my time to college stuff can start the cravings easly cause stress, so this week i proposed myself to dedicate at...
Been a while since i last wrote here, college has been pretty demanding this last two weeks. Today is day 1, yesterday i had to stay in a hotel cause i was to tired to drive back home. The last guests that had been there left the TV on the porn channel so the rest is history. I won't turn on the...
Know what it feels bro. The important thing here is to keep trying harder every time and never giving up. Be compassive with yourself and take every relapse as an opportunity to know what triggers you. I've found out that even the tiniest of the things can get you triggered. As part of my...
Screwed this week streak. It was so stressfull. This semester college is demanding a lot. I have to find healthy ways to purge all of the stress. It has been a tough week. So starting again today more carefully and paying more attention to negative feelings. Those are being quick triggers for...
Day 0 (continuation). I can't stand this. I haven't had this kind of relapses y usually go 3+ days until a relapse, but this is getting me terrified. If anybody has gone with this issue and has some advices please write a comment i would like to read. Thank you!
Day 0. This week has been one of the strangest ones. I have relapsed every single day since sunday even though all my devices have blockers and my network has a porn filter. This week i had managed somehow to get my way into porn: (trying combinations in the net, looking for...
Day 5. Last sunday i got a really weak moment and i relapsed. Talked about it with mi AP. She wanted me to write every day of how i'm feeling and specially those days were i have the urges. Every 7 days i'll have to send those and we'll discuss about it. This month hasn't been what i expected...
Day 7 (continuation). Today i'm feeling the urges, but i'm confident to get over them by taking proper action. Today i haven't done my morning routine since last night i arrive home late so i just wanted to sleep. I understand how important is this to stay into the challenge. New week is coming...
Day 7. I've realised how important is to have a morning routine out of social media. Since monday i've started to excersise (10x4 push ups, 10x4 V abs, 30x4 squats), talking a cold shower while listening to a psychology podcast and then having a guided meditation session for 10 minutes. The...
Day 2. I've traveled for like a month in wich i reached 33 days sober. However i got distracted and too confident about myself control and ended in relapsing various times. I've arrived home for a fresh start and beat that 33 day mark. I've talked with my AP to desing and test new strategies to...
Day 26. Today i had wet dreams. Felt really tired in the morning, but that improved through the day. Tomorrow is the final test of one of my assingnments and thus the end of this semester. A lot to review in this month of vacation, but i'm proud i got myself here. Flatlining wasn't that hard and...