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D9 Sometimes I am thinking, what if I fail; will I feel myself bad, blaming my weakness and will I loose my self confidence? What if I break the rules and let myself into porn? Being a nondependent means zero tolerance? I am putting these questions because I miss the feeling I had during this...

Do we have to be comletly clean? The main goal is that the porn shall not control our life and ruin our sexual behavior. Dont feel sick just because masturbating after a long tiring day. My main goal is to live happily without shame, because shame is one of our enemies. And if I will fail once...

D7 I feel way much better than I thought. I know this is just the beginning, but I look forward.

D4 Everything seems good so far, however some feelings grab me to open a P site. I am thinking what is I break the rules, that ruins everything or the march may go on...

Hi Guitar, dont feel "bad" about the girls! Think about the fact that you are needed. Sometimes I think about my self as a looser, not good for nothing. But when I see my 4yo daughter running to me, I feel blessed. The 19yo daughter of my partner is different, but still needing me (not...

D3 Yesterday I had my Bday. I had better ones. I feel a little depressed, but not because of my illness. I dont miss P too much, I miss the feeling. I find things to do. I sleep during the night and I wake up rested. Strange: I feel quite excited about my "new" life without the bad...

Hi my friend! The same issue with me. The two things stick together like hell. I did not enjoy(ed) masturbation without having 5-10 cigarettes one after another. Crazy thing. This week I decided to quit, since me and the house smelled and it took bunch of time from sleeping, waking up exhausted...

We will always find excuses why we fell off. Maybe we will never be able to change completly, but to put it in a moderate way...? That P shall not take over control on us. I read here, almost all of us fell once, twice, some a houndred times. You should consider it as a stumble, continue the...

Day 1 done. Woke up rested out. I keep on going on the road.

I am trying to find out our triggers since all of us have the same problem. Probably we are too lazy to live in the real world, to work for exitement and satisfaction. Speaking, caressing, waiting for the other to react, understanding and accepting her reaction and to react again accordingly. P...

Ok. So I discussed with myself. I discussed with my partner, she welcome visiting this forum. She is so smart and tolerant. To be honest, I feel depressed and nervous "loosing" a without watching a P movie, but after waking up Im sure I will be proud. A little step fwd. Hope everyone will be...

Q: Are you have any sexual dysfunction.. A: I would say yes, I'm not the same I was. I prefer movies than a real woman, that is why i look for salvation.

I always felt, feel (how I wish telling it in past tense) guilty, filthy; a bad man. Now I see, that I am not alone with this suffer and other good, normal peolpe are also struggling to quit. may the Force be with you

Thanks G for the words put to me. I am fresh here, but not fresh in failing...unfortunately So we both know how bad it is looking in the eye of our loved ones when you lie, or fail. Im in the stage of blaming myself. I have a high hope being here. Thanks again!

I would say yes, I'm not the same I was. It takes more time to get immersed, to tune in and we have only some time to get to each other. We have a 4yo daughter who separates us by night, my partner or me sleeps with her. This is part of the problem, not absolving my responsibility. Are you...