Recent content by reboot195

I haven't made a post for several months. I began this journey end of august 2022 and I can say that after 7 months I have relapsed a loooot of times. But getting a high score of days not watching porn isn't the goal here - I'm probably gonna relapse a lot of times more. I would say that I'm...

Today's day 83. The evening of day 80 was a milestone for me. I felt the "wanting" again. The feeling you get when absolutely no doubt is felt and you just feel the the urge of doing something. You are in total control of yourself, your emotions and your actions. I just felt it briefly, but...

Today's day 79 without P&M. I got some psychological insight I wanted to share with you guys. In my process of rebooting I have experienced a lot of emptiness and difficult emotions like loneliness, insecurity, meaninglessness, helplessness, anxiety and fear. I started therapy when I was 22...

Thanks for the support @Beautiful1973, it’s healing reading that I’m not the only one feeling like this. Makes it easier to process.😊

@SimonM you are completely right and thanks for the advice. I'm totally open about my insecurity with my girlfriend, I would say that my problem is not that I don't communicate my feelings (good or bad), I have always talked with her about my feelings and would say I'm rather good at it. My...

Today's day 76 without P and M. Last few days has been pretty hard. I'm currently in-between jobs and starting at the new place 1st of December. Being home and not working makes me pretty anxious and pulls me toward social media (social media is also amplifying the anxiety). I recognize the...

Today's day 72. It feels like a lifetime since I made my last post. I think my fluctuating emotions create this illusion. When I look back, it has only been a little over 2 months since my last PMO. It's incredible how much has happened (emotionally) to me in this short period of time. It...

Thanks for the advice, I'm really looking forward to do so. And I'm really happy to hear someone saying that I should stay, it's like no-one knows what porn addiction does to feelings in a relationship. I don't feel that it's the right thing to leave her, I really want to be more present around...

Today's day 64 without P and M. I still have stress symptoms, but they're gradually fading I can tell. Depression is still there but days are getting brighter for me. I'm still thinking about P sometimes and the novelty-mind is still at is largest which make me dream my life away. When I look...

Thanks man, I really appreciate it. Having sex without the O is actually really hard. I have not been connected to my sexual/sensual feelings for many years but it made me notice how much I need to relax and not just do fast O like when I watching P.

The last week has been a hard week. Rewire with a girl has showed the tough side of itself. It’s like I don’t know how I feel about her. My motivation for a girl has been completely gone and she can clearly feel that. I’m trying to explain her that it’s a part of the process of rebooting, but...

Hello Crackers1, I can truly see myself in your situation regarding your confusing thoughts about EVERYTHING. I’m actually right there myself too. But I have for now, hopefully, gone through the worst part of the weird stuff my mind has telling me after no PMO for almost 2 months. I also, and...

Thank you for your story and I really admire your work. Dealing with PMO is not easy, but doesn't have to be hard either. I truly believe that being in a relationship while dealing with addiction need some transparency. I have a girlfriend while doing a reboot and I have just figured that it's...

Hello everyone I may also apologies in advance, my English it is not my main language. I'm writing this journal to hopefully being able to support others with my story of porn addiction and maybe get some feedback. My story started just like a lot of other people, 13 years old with high...