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    can abnormal sexual tastes last long after porn use?

    quitting porn wasn't an issue for me as i wasn't hooked on it to begin with, but i can see how it must have desensitized me. i probably also quit because of that, instead of doing what most others seem to do and get to more intense content. however i keep resetting my timer, not because i'm...
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    hypothetical question

    say i do turn out to actually be sexually attracted to boys (which at the moment i hope it is only mutated taste) would i still be nervous around women as i have been for a long time now? at the moment i am trying to pick up, and i get easily worked up about my lack of success...
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    suffering SOOCD: is it considered a relapse if i test myself?

    i didn't use porn, but i was really thinking about what had stimulated me to the problematic cues. my responses had weakened to them recently, and slowly but inconsistently returning from women. so i looked up a lot of youtube videos about said people just to make out what it was that actually...
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    my disturbing journal

    i'm ashamed to admit that i've developed a taste for pubescent boys generally in their early teens, and whenever i masturbate, i default to fantasizing about them.  When this started at around the age of fifteen, i thought it was just a phase but it has been perpetual. i've been attracted to...
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    caught in-between while rewiring sexual tastes, which direction to take?

    hi everyone, for my first post on this forum i need some guidance as i'm beginning my reboot. i've been experimenting with how i should approach my reboot lately and i am conflicted about something. as a straight guy (as far as i believe) i've been looking forward to re-strengthening my...
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