Recent content by BlueDream

Day 19 hard mode. Flat line at 80% This is probably the furthest I’ve made in the last 5 years. That number 5 years ago stopped at 35. Im ready to keep grinding to get to and past that 35 days. Last night was the hardest for me to get through. The PMO monster was keeping me up super late at...

Day 16 no PMO Getting close to my half way mark of the longest I’ve gone before with PMO. The record is 35 days and that was attempted over 3 years ago. Last nights dream was difficult. I was viewing P in the dream, and my penis was getting erect. In the dream I was trying to convince myself...

Hey bud, how’s it going these days? I hope you’re doing alright and that today is going well. Keep in touch

Day 14 no PMO. Flat line continued So the last 2 days have been much better than Sunday was. My gym schedule seems to help me with feeling super low. It’s easier for me to complete my self care routine when I get up at 4am for the gym Mon-Thur, I’m done with everything before it’s 630am and...

Day 12 no PMO. Today has been a little depressing. I can’t seem to get out of it either. Not sure exactly what the issue is all I know is that I feel down. I had dreams for the first time in a while last night. I had a brief moment in the dream where I was or about to PMO and I felt terrible...

Day 11 no PMO. Yesterday was a one of the good days. I posted for the first time here and it was really inspiring to see the community share and support each other. That boosted my morale for most of the day. Spent an hour on the treadmill walking with the incline set at 12. I was soaked in...

Hey buddy, I want you to know that you’re not alone. I’ve been using PMO for over 2 decades and have been intermittently trying to stop now for years. I’ve recently doubled down my intensions and have been more active in attempting to address triggers and bad habits. I’m currently on day 10...

... What is the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. This is what I was doing, I wanted to change without changing. I was not ready to put the work into the harsh reality of PMO and its effects. I'm having a hard time remember what...

... When I was 18 I went through a traumatic experience in losing my mother to leukemia. I was using PMO to soothe myself with the overwhelming feelings of sadness and loneliness. It was a this moment when PMO took control over my life and never let go. I would start to watch more porn that was...

Well here we go, this isn’t my first rodeo here. I've been using PMO for over 24 years now. Been a member for 6 years and I’ve know about PIED some years before that when I first found YBOP. First time posting here I think. This wont be pretty or perfect, however it needs to be documented for...

Hello, 30 year old male, started PMOing when I was 14. I've had symptoms of PIED for many years and never realized what porn was doing to me. I've been trying to quit PMO since early June of 2016 with little success. The longest I've made it was 14 days before I relapsed. Today is day 9 of...