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  1. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 649 - This might be my last post for a while, gentlemen. Good luck to you all.
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    My story that started two years ago

    Thanks. I believe reducing stress helps lower the voice, and I took a vocal training course as well. Just one of the many hobbies I've started since quitting porn :) (two ebooks, YT channel, vocal training, voiceover, tennis lessons... ) That's in addition to my day job..
  3. Carl_Smith

    My story that started two years ago

    This is my 3 minute story, that talks about what's happened to me since I stopped watching porn ~2 years ago.
  4. Carl_Smith

    Almost a 2 year journey, from no porn -> no jerking off -> no fantasizing

    Here is perhaps a more human explanation.
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    Almost a 2 year journey, from no porn -> no jerking off -> no fantasizing

    My brain has two superpowers. The first power is envisioning all the possible futures in which bad things could happen. The second power is envisioning all the possible futures in which I could have sex with people. Do you also have an active imagination like me? My journey of almost two years...
  6. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Fantasy “You can’t be ‘in the moment’ if you spent the prior day anticipating that moment.” — C. Smith “Blessed is he who expects nothing, for he shall never be disappointed.” — Alexander Pope My brain has two superpowers. The first power is envisioning all the possible futures in which bad...
  7. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    I haven't jerked off for 4 weeks now, very happy about this accomplishment. This hasn't happened since I hit puberty 30 years ago. I don't even want/need sex with my wife that much, 1-2 times a week is fine, and it feels really good when we have it. Basically, quitting porn helped me a lot...
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    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Masturbation For the first 20 months after I stopped watching porn, my simple rule was to never fap to screens, only memory or imagination. It never felt as bad afterward, like porn or screens did. But one day, I was “completely fed up” with jerking off, even though it had been a constant...
  9. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    At age 43, I've decided I'm done not only with porn (602 days free, although I've seen a couple of R anime shows), but also jerking off from memory/imagination. Have not jerked off since Friday, instead I'm focusing on my wife. She may not want all this extra energy, but I think jerking off is...
  10. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 509 -- Starting a 5 day nofap today. I've done this a few times in the last few months so I'm extra horny for my wife and can finish quickly. It's important for me to do this (age 42 / been married 16 years), but it is not easy. I've been jerking off since age 13 (from memory) so it's a...
  11. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 503 - Year end wrap up. My 3 biggest dopamine enemies, which threaten my physical and mental health: ✅ Mostly stayed off of carb addiction, did "intermittent fasting" all year. Only eat from 12pm-5:30pm. ✅ Stayed off of porn all year, no fapping to screens. Watched 1 ecchi show, but it...
  12. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 464 - Thanksgiving. What are you thankful for? I'm thankful for the crazy mental energy and focus I've had since I quit porn and video game addiction. I've spent the last week working on a new hobby website, writing a 2nd ebook, and learning new languages like TypeScript and modern web...
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    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 436 The stormy waves in my mind have changed into a smooth, still lake. It’s an amazing feeling of balance and contentment. I believe that smashing my brain with dopamine “junk food” was preventing me from finding this place, but this is where I want to stay. I actually am in the best...
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    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 420 BEAUTY It doesn’t help you appreciate beauty. After years of looking for “new perfect 10s” that are “just your type” online, that thrill will become harder to find, and you’ll spend most of your time searching in frustration for something new. The hottest, most surgically enhanced...
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    Enough is enough

    I have heard of other people removing devices and smartphones and it helped them. You say you've tried will power and it was hard. You also have done a lot of reading. If you have 30 minutes, can I suggest https://flying-eagle-method.org/ ? It's a quick read. Good luck.
  16. Carl_Smith

    Holding the Fool (me) to Account

    > - I don't stare after hot women/girls in the real world. I notice and move on. Good for you champ. This is still highly challenging for me.. It's very easy for me to creep out when I'm at the pool (with my family)... my eyes are like heat seeking missiles And to be honest, being off porn...
  17. Carl_Smith

    Flatline stories...please!

    My flatline was 45 days. No libido / erections. But frankly I didn't care because I was happy to be free from slavery of screens and porn. The other effects could be related to your own mindset and attitude. If you think withdrawals are going to be hard, then they probably will be.... you...
  18. Carl_Smith

    Enough is enough

    My teenage son is going to start taking the bus next year... I was already worried about that exact scenario you mentioned. (except with phones and video). Live free man, I can tell you it can be done...
  19. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Day 413 Remembering Do I still remember some scenes from porn? Honestly, yes – but they are much less stimulating. It’s like an old, burnt cigarette, that generates a small amount of dopamine. What has been seen can’t be unseen, but it will get blurrier over time, and not dwelled upon.
  20. Carl_Smith

    Carl Smith - Living Free

    Thanks SimonM 👍👍👍 Sorry for the message flood, this is the 3rd and perhaps last for now. The creative energy was really flowing this weekend. Day 412 Electricity and Rationalizing Imagine your limbic brain is a dumb electrical appliance. If you unplug 99 out of 100 power cords (false...
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