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My wife is expecting our first child in 127 days. I can break this down as my goal to be clean until that date (and beyond) into sub-goals: 7 days, 30 days, 90 days. Each segment will give me sufficient experience and strength to progress towards the main target of being free from PMO in 127...

My wife revealed to me that she is pregnant with our first child. It hasn't really sunk in yet and am experiencing the initial taste of excitement and apprehension but know I must chill out and go slow with digesting our news. This comes on the back of a relapse and 16/17 years of m*ing to...

Hi everyone, I'm back writing on the forum in a strange but challenging time. In short, I have continued to lapse in looking at stuff, mostly soft porn or porn subs. Whilst that obviously isn't good and is my demon, last night after a great day I was home alone and watched porn videos and...

Yesterday I watched pornography. It is messing with my head today. That is now in the past and this is the end of wasting my life. I have run the course of repeating the same old bad habits despite clear implications about my behaviour. It has ruined my life in so many ways, yet nobody knows...

How many wake-up calls do I need? And why do I keep giving in so easily to porn-subs? Last night I had amazing sex with my wife, it was hot and passionate. I don't think I have ever had such a long lasting and hard erection, but I didn't cum. So obviously today is going to be difficult and...

Quick post. Day 6 - feel like shit, really moody and lack motivation and concentration. Have been trying to reboot for years but finally starting to understand what this is going to take for me namely a conscious decision every day if not multiple times to stay away and replace porn or its subs...

Hi guys. I've been working hard on personal development for a while, the last three months big time. I've learnt a lot about myself and how/why I've been using porn and how the addiction is really effecting my life. It's like clarity has really been found. Although edging was my problem for a...

I'm a few weeks into 'really' stopping after many failed attempts and kidding myself. WIthdrawal symptoms are killing me and giving me mental health issues. Really struggling with low self esteem. I know its got to be done but hatting it. hate the guilt that comes with it too.

I'm up to Day 10 but have edged this morning and porn is messing my brain. Standard withdrawal symptoms are playing it's part but want to ask you guys for help how I can stop edging every time I get past around a week without porn. Also, I've read about setting consequences but find it hard to...

I'm 32 and married. Addicted for 15 years. Chronic health problems. Tried and failed for the majority of that time. Learning constantly but finding it hard to imagine a life of 'freedom' from this vicious cycle that is damaging my life. It's reached a point where I am doubting some of the most...

Today I'm fighting my PA. I've come close to viewing p online, but somehow managed not to. But I hate this struggle. I know why it's so harmful and destructive and simply do not want to look at anything inappropriate. For the rest of this afternoon, I am simply not allowed to type anything into...

Today, I felt some temptation especially after coming across something online totally be accident. Being able to resist browsing that would have led to watching porn, this is progress. But I know my brain was craving it and it will take time to heal and recover from years of this...

This is my first post after years of struggling to make real progress with my PA. More importantly, I must commit to using this platform at least several times a week to express and keep myself in check. I've hit a bit of a personal crisis: I'm 32 yo, married with no kids and having work...