Let The Battle Begin!

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Zenreboot

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So... Long story short as many other people here I started using porn during my early teens. Nowadays I highly suspect that I have porn addiction. I have social anxiety, loss of libido and I am in the DARK... My porn interest turned from normal content to more extreme as everyone is talking about this. THIS IS ACTUALLY TRUE.  I need help, I've lost my hope in the bright future but I believe that answer lies in my brain. I think porn has caused more destructive effects than I've ever imagined it could. I came along this website 1 month ago and finally decided to man up and start holy rebooting process. Friends I hope and count on your support I don't wanna travel that road alone. Right now I don't want to open too much. I will keep some details for me but one day maybe I share more. Thank you guys for your attention and support and hope that this first step towards this direction will eventually lead me to salvation.  :)

Let the battle against the porn BEGIN!...

DAY 1.
 
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Zenreboot

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DAY 4.  The hardest part right now is sexual fantasies. When I see a sexy girl on the street I can't control my dirty mind :D . Does anyone here has some tips to overcome that problem?
 
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kook__

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I saw it in another journal: The first look is on God, every other one is on you. It's all about habituation, you just have to overcome this bad habit like PMO, by conscious decision not to do the same thing you were used to. It's possible, I promise :) Good luck on your journey :)
 
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Zenreboot

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Thank you for your kind response and motivation I am trying to do my best! But unfortunately i think I've lost my sobriety - I went to massage brothel and had ... with a girl does that count?
 
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kook__

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It's up to you but personally I don't consider it as a healthy way of rewiring your brain to relatively real partner :)
 
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RuntoSpirit

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Hi Zenreboot,

Yes your trip to the brothel merits a restart.  Even for married folk, they are advised to refrain from orgasmic sex for at least a month (and preferably 90 days) for a good reboot.  The reason is that we are wanting to give the brain a rest from any demands sexually so that it has maximum time to rewire. 

What have you done in your efforts so far?  Do you have a porn filter?  Do you have a list of substitute actiities you can easily jump to when the urge to PMO hits?
Keep reading about porn addiction.
Read about the porn industry and how it is abusive to men and especially women involved in the busness.
Keep posting.  We care about your success.
 
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Zenreboot

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So I guess it's DAY 1. again... Because of my adventures. So far I haven't watch any porn for 5 days but I'm struggling to battle fantazies. Guys so I can't have any sex during my reboot process? I am going to take up swimming in order to relax and concentrate on a healthy activity.
 
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RuntoSpirit

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As I understand it, this is a personal decision about sex or not.  But I belive it is at least advisable to go for one month without sex to give your brain chance to reboot.  It has had a lot of confusion of sexual stimuli.  That is why many men go the Hard mode - no artificial stimulation and no sex either.
That is what I am doing as I felt I needed drastic measures.  Now on day 47 and things seem to be going well.  I have found the moments of not having a lot ofinterest in sex to be a welcome rest from the days I have to stand firm against urges.  Pretty much I trust this process so I don't worry about whether I am feeling sexual or not.
WIshing you the best in your recovery.
 
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Zenreboot

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OK so it's now solid DAY 2 without any "bugs" or "glitches"..  ;D Gaming will also aid me in a recovering process I guess since it's a good source of  distraction.
 
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RuntoSpirit

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You are going to be one "in shape" guy.  Good for you.  I suspect this is better for you than gaming, but then I am not much of a gamer so I am only guessing at that.  At any rate these activities actually give you a healthy source of dopamine (as opposed to the supplies released by the porn) so overall this bodes really well for your recovery.  There will be other challenges to face but already you are building resources to face them.
Cheers to your recovery.
 
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Zenreboot

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TY buddy for your kind words. Right now I don't feel any improvement in my social anxiety or real life libido but I hope with time and patience I will be there. I like one girl right now but with my current stance I kinda hesitate to approach her. I am concentrating on my studies, work and exercising
 
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Zenreboot

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Guys can someone tell me what are the reasons for restarting? What shouldn't I do except from watching P ofcourse?
 
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re1908

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Having fantasies on women when you see them anywhere, it shouldn't be done as well.

Having to know better how porn industry is made me realize what's wrong with them, they treat porn stars like animal!
We shouldn't do that since woman simply is not an object.

If those fantasies are still running on your brain, you have to stop that as well. It help you to avoid relapse.
 
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Zenreboot

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I am trying but they come on their own. Once they come I start the battle right away... Also internet and especially facebook is full of traps. I can't control facebook news feed ...
 
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Zenreboot

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My addiction is burning me from inside right now I am one step away from relapsing... Something really bad happened today and I seek escape into my addiction. I need someone to talk to ... I'm close to relapse ... I am not sure if i can make it to the next day.
 
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